ChemoKev

Can't sleep

2009-02-17T17:52:00.000-08:00

I am sat in my office at the moment, in the Villa, in Luxor, at 3 AM in the morning. It is one of those mornings where I have awoken spontaneously and feel wide-awake. It seems a perfect opportunity to add another chapter to the blog.

We have been in Luxor for one week, and I have certainly felt the benefit of being in the sunshine. It has re-energise my aura and I feel a lot stronger by far. We are still battling with the medication problem. Although we are trying our best to cut out morphine from the regime of drugs that I am taking, all of the drugs are opiate-based and so have a link in to this energy. One of the sets of tablets that I am taking is called Pregabelin, which is initially given to people who are suffering from epileptic fits. However, one of the other qualities of this drug is that it is very good at combating nerve pain, and so it has been prescribed for me in this capacity. I am still experiencing bouts of nerve pain that arise every 2 to 3 days. They are extremely painful when they are here, and the general consensus of thought was to take the tablets to try to offset the occurrences of this very disabling pattern. To some extent this has been successful. Unfortunately, as with all medicated drugs, there is a price to pay. The particular side effects of this drug are depression and disassociation of reality. As you will see when we start to talk about how to overcome cancer, having to tackle the energy of depression is not a good thing. In order to beat cancer one has to be upbeat and cultivate a space of positive attitude. This is very hard to do when the tablets you aren't taking causes feelings of depression to arise spontaneously and continuously.

Christine and I are now putting the final touches to a trip that we will be organising to take a small group of people (around 20) around the Temples of Egypt via a Five-Star Nile cruise at the time of the Wesak Full Moon. We are hoping that people will feel attracted to doing this trip with us, mainly because Christine and I have spent the last three years living here and we have a particular feel for the area and the people, and we are also aware of the esoteric facts behind most of the temples which we will be able to share with the group. Having been to the temples many times, Christine and I know where all of the best sites are and can lead our group directly to them. Most of these places within the temples are very rarely seen by tourists because the government guides are not trained to take people into the spaces or to explain the enigmas that they contain. We have put together a comprehensive trip that touches on all of the major temple sites in Egypt, and of course some time down in Cairo where we have booked some private time in the Great Pyramid itself. Again, because we have booked the Great Pyramid we will have access to all of the site and can therefore visit the Queen's chamber and the subterranean chamber where initiations took place. It is these areas that tourists are not allowed to see normally. There should also be enough time for each member of the group to lie in the sarcophagus in which initiations took place by all of the major spiritual teachers throughout known history. We believe that we are creating a truly magical journey and the details of this will be on our website within the next four weeks.

Christine and I are using all of our experience to try to overcome the bouts of pain that seem to come in every 2 to 3 days. We are in touch with a homoeopathic friend of Christine's in England and have enlisted the help also. As always, if you work the problem the answer will come and we are hoping that the answer will come of this particular problem soon. We start the seven-day Merkabah on Sunday with a small group here in Luxor. I have not decided whether I will take part in this or not, because at the moment it is pretty sure that I will not be able to fit in for the full-time due to these disabling occurrences which we are trying to find the answer to. I would not want to disrupt the group too much. There is still nearly a week ago and the all sorts of things can happen in such a short space of time. We shall see.

Hospice Again

2009-02-10T11:04:00.000-08:00

Sorry if you have already received this blog through the e-mail group by mistake. I sent it from Heathrow whilst under the influence of the deadly morphine and put it on the wrong site.

And so it I myself once again in the hospice.
Having had to leave the cottage because of a prior booking taken before Christine and I decided to stay in England, we now find ourselves in a bed and breakfast, one bedroomed room at the farm of the lady that owns the cottage. Christine returned to Egypt the day after we moved in, but I found it increasingly difficult to look after myself in the small space. I had two attacks of the pain whilst I was there, and had to ring the emergency doctor in the middle of the night in order to cope with the intensity of the pain. For the first time they gave me something called Diamorphine Hydrochloride, which for all of you is better known as heroin. I have to say that this chemical decimated me much more than any other chemical I have ever taken in my life. It turned me from an intelligent, witty, expansive thinking person into a drooling fool.

The plus side of taking this exceedingly strong chemical was that it got rid of the pain within 15 minutes. But as I have said, the after affects are devastating, and they can last up to 24 hours after the initial dose. It became apparent, therefore, that I could not look after myself in the small space and so I contacted the hospice in the hope that I could come and stay with them for a period until I got used to the medication. So this is what happened.

I have now been in the hospice for over a week, and had to cancel my flight to Egypt which I had pre-booked and which caused me great sorrow at the time. Whilst I have been here I have been experiencing these run-ins with the pain every 2 to 3 days. I have made a decision though that I am not going to take the Diamorphine anymore. This is because I would rather be in pain than a dribbling idiot sat in a chair totally disconnected from this reality drooling onto my clothes and making a profound mess. I have decided to just take the normal oral morphine which can take up to 5 hours to bring the pain under control, but better this, then being out of touch for 24 hours.
I have rebooked my flight to Egypt and I go tomorrow from Heathrow. I am trusting that this trip will be uneventful and that I will be able to manage the transfers from Manchester to Heathrow successfully and that I will not have to deal with any bouts of pain. Christine and I have cast this intention into spirit and we are sure it's going to work.

Christine started a brand-new Seven-Day Angelic Reiki in Luxor today. I hope to join this workshop on Tuesday morning and run with it for the rest of the week, spending as much time as possible with the group. If I can manage to do this, it will be the first time I have taught in over 14 months. To say that I am looking forward to getting back into the energy would be an understatement. I have really made plans that this year is Kevin's big comeback.
Whilst I am in Luxor I will detail through my diary a number of workshops that I am hoping to run here in England throughout this year. I intend to keep busy and so the schedule will be full. Two of the workshop that I will be teaching will be the Angelic Reiki update with all of the information about how to beat cancer. There may be another workshop over three days dedicated to the method that we have come up with to successfully overcome cancer. On top of this I am using the energies of manifestation to create the most perfect future for myself. Since immersing myself in this energy I have now the best feel I have ever had about how to manifest and I am hoping to weave this into the previous workshop that we taught which was the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki manifestation workshop. It will be taught in a totally different way with not so much emphasis on Deepak Chopra's seven laws. I feel and I am excited that this workshop will be exceedingly powerful and will, for those people who attend, totally change their lives from that moment onwards. It is this workshop that spirit wishes me to teach more than any other. I am also communicating with spirit in a much deeper and profound way and I will pass this way onto you in any workshop that you attend. It is direct communication with the godhead itself. But don't get worried about it being too profound, it is exactly the opposite of this which if you think about it would always be so.

I am hoping to post this blog when I have a bit of time down at Heathrow tomorrow and so we should all be up to scratch in the next few days. Whilst I am in Luxor I intend to keep up to this blog, and to also look at video blogging. I am also going to start to put some videos up on YouTube. These will be the kind of questions that I am always asked in workshops. The obvious ones will be, “What is the difference between Angelic Reiki and the other Reiki systems?” I am hoping they will become a focus of interest and draw many more people into our sphere of operations for both Christian and myself and all other teachers out there. If any of you have any suggestions of any video clips lasting no longer than 10 minutes that you would like me to tackle, then please send your suggestions to me at yophielangel@btconnect.com.
Once again, I thank all of the people who have been sending me e-mails, but as you have seen from above I have not been in the space to answer them. At some point in the future I really will get down to the task of connecting to you all again. So please take this communication as a way of saying thank you to you all from the bottom of my heart.
All of my love.
Kevin.

The Gift

2009-01-20T13:32:00.000-08:00

Many of you have heard me talking in workshops about how the energy of healing can slow down the progression of cancer, even to the point of halting it completely. Although I gave many examples of this, my favourite was the story of the lady that I found sat on the steps of the clinic that I worked in. She was crying her eyes out, and when I asked her what was wrong, she told me that she had lung cancer and the doctors had just told her she only had three or four weeks to live. I took her into the clinic and immediately did one healing session on her. This created a relationship between us that lasted for nine months. During this time I did a healing session with her every week for those nine months.
The reason why she had been crying was that she was absolutely terrified of dying. During the nine months that I treated her, we talked often about what would happen when she died, where she would go, and what she would experience. Through talking this subject through over the nine months her fear of dying was alleviated.
After I had been treating her for nine months she suddenly decided to ask me to come once every two weeks, and then soon after this once every month. As soon as we started to space out the healing more, the cancer in her lungs activated once again she died in her sleep a month later. She had decided it was time to go and that was ok.

This is typical of the service that doing healing for people with cancer can be. It is my understanding and reality that healing will slow cancer down if not stopping it completely, and gives the person time to assimilate the situation in which they find themselves. As a healer, I often contemplated what it would be like to have cancer, but I never thought for a moment that I would receive the same kind of gift myself if I contracted cancer. This has been the case however.

For those of you who have read the death and dying article, you will know that as you take your last breath there is a process that we all go through where we let go of the various bodies that we have used to manifest on the third dimensional plane. These consist of the physical/etheric, the emotional body, and the mental body. One has to let go of each of these bodies before one finds oneself in the radiant light of your soul.

Over the last three months I have been aware that the two years that have passed since the original operation to remove the cancerous tumour in my mouth, has been spent grieving the loss of Kevin Core. It is said that if someone loses a loved one through death it takes two years of processing before one can finally let go of that person. As a councillor who helped people grieve their lost relatives, I can vouch for the fact that this two-year period is roughly correct. What I have found, however, is that over the two years that have passed since the original operation, I have been grieving everything that is Kevin Core
How is this a service? At the time of writing this blog I can honestly say that I have brought into balance every aspect of my life as this personality. It is through the constant looking back at my life over the last two years, of working through the emotional attachments, of the mental anxieties that have sprung up periodically in my life, that I can honestly say I have brought all of these into balance. If it was that I took my last breath tomorrow, I would not have to do all of this processing on the emotional and mental plane, having done the work here, I would very speedily drop the emotional and mental body's and find myself in that wonderful place of my own soul and the Masters.
So this is the service that the healing has done for me. It has held this cancer in abeyance for the last two years so that I have been able to do all the work on myself, on my personality, to bring it all into balance so that I can honestly say in this moment I am totally at peace with myself. Such is the gift of healing.

Health Update

2009-01-17T12:13:00.000-08:00

At this moment in time, Christine and I feel that we are at a turning point with Deep River. As detailed in the last blog, I have now completely finished taking morphine but it has taken over 10 days to clear it out of my system. It has been amazing how it has undermined my perception of self, and caused me to drift into a space of accepting the inevitable, which is being conquered by this illness. As the morphine cleared out of my system, so my resolve returned.

At the moment, I am taking a medication called Tramaset, which is a combination of a mild opiate and Paracetamol. I am also taking another medication called Pregabalin, which is used to treat people with epilepsy, but has the quality of reducing nerve pain.
Since writing the last blog I have been completely free of all pain as long as I take these two medications. This is a massive shift in my condition, because only two weeks ago, I was suffering from the most amazingly intense pain on a daily basis.

One of the major contributing factors to my speedy recovery is the fact that I have been consulting a homoeopath as part of the treatment for Deep River. I am absolutely sure that the cessation of the pain has been due entirely to the homoeopathic remedies that I have been prescribed. One of the results of these remedies is that a hole opened up spontaneously in the left-hand side of my neck. If you look at the photograph in this blog you will see the large lump that has formed there. Although the doctors have taken biopsies from this lump and stated it is cancer, I do not believe this to be true. I believe that the original operation two years ago caused the blockage in the lymph system in my neck. This lump is the result of the blockage. With the opening of the hole in my neck, and the constant draining over the last 10 days of excess lymph fluid, I have seen a cessation of the intense pain that I have been experiencing.

It is Christine and my intention that the whole of this journey will be to create a system of healing which will clear cancer on any level. We intend to teach it as part of a two-day course later this year, and also to integrate it into the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki Workshops that we will teach throughout the world this year. It will also be a major part of the Angelic Reiki update that we will be holding in England, also later this year.
As part of the treatment for cancer, we strongly recommend that a classical homoeopath be consulted to support the healing. This is the course that I have walked over the last two months, and I feel that the effect of the homoeopathic remedies is solely contributory to the disappearance of the pain.

We also strongly recommend that anybody who wishes to follow the line of treatment that we indicate, should also seek out an Angelic Reiki Healer, preferably at Master Level, to do a healing at least once a week. Obviously, Christine and I can avail us of this energy at any time, and I cannot stress too strongly how much it supports the healing in this illness.

To give an indication of how the healing can help, on a bad day, which is what I have had today, one of the side effects of having this illness is extreme tiredness and exhaustion. In the course of today I have only been awake for five hours since midnight last night, it now being 8 PM at the time of writing this blog. It has taken me all of my time to move from one place to another without feeling extremely exhausted
Another side-effect, which I have mentioned before, is a shortness of breath. I find this one particularly distressing; as you can feel that you are choking and suffocating at the same time. Although we have the tools to overcome this illness, one can get so immersed in it as we cannot see what needs to be done in any one moment. So it was today. I have been feeling so ill today that I could not focus on what I needed to help me clear this intense tiredness. It was only at Christine's insistence; at 4 PM this afternoon that she felt we should do a healing. This is what we did, for about 15 minutes. I cannot explain how powerfully the energy came in to clear this tiredness. Christine felt that the energy came from master level and energise both of us to an extreme degree. Since the healing, I am now completely energised and raring to go, and ready to tackle anything. We sometimes forget what an amazing gift we have been given.

Christine returns to Luxor on 25 January, and I follow one week later. We feel that this will cause a big shift in the energy around us; that having lived in this cottage for the last six months has been a burning ground for me; a Dark Night of the Soul, where I have died, and been reborn. Once I get in to the sunshine of Luxor, and get energised by it, I feel that my healing will take on new meaning, and I am hopeful that I will start to teach workshops this year. I will reiterate again that this illness has been the most amazing gift, and if I had to go through it again to get the same results I would.
Once again, I would like to thank all of you for your e-mails of support, and I am hoping to reply to them as soon as possible.
Much love to you all.Kevin.

The Twighlight Zone

2009-01-13T13:47:00.000-08:00

Hi all.
So, another week passes since I last contributed to this blog.
On reflection, as I write these words, it occurs to me that Kevin Core has not been around for the last two months. The start of the exodus into other realms began with the advent of the intense pain that I started to feel nearly 2 months ago. After having called the emergency services, and finding myself in the emergency room, I was given morphine in order to alleviate the pain. As these periods of pain intensified, and I sought advice from my local health-care professionals, it was decided to prescribe morphine for me on a regular basis. This was first given as a liquid that I took whenever I needed to alleviate intense pain. This later expanded into morphine patches, which resemble patches not unlike the ones that you use to stop smoking. Once applied to the skin, they remain in position for three days and introduced into the body a continuous supply of morphine. I had just got a supply of these patches just before Christmas, and it was when I had these attached to me, that we found it difficult over Christmas, in the sense I could not partake in the festivities.

I do feel to some extent that the spiritual practices that I do, which do have a refining nature on the energy bodies, can leave one susceptible to very dense chemicalisation. It may be that this has left me very susceptible to the side effects of these medications. Whatever the cause, I have found these medications are too much for me. Since writing the last blog, I have had to take the morphine because I still have periods of pain, but once again found it put me in a very difficult space in which I cannot work at all. In fact, for the last week I have been sleeping nearly 16 hours a day. This becaome unbearable when Christine was in tears because she missed me too much. I simply was not here! In order for me to function on any normal level whatsoever I have now had to leave morphine alone completely.

So what does it do?
What I will describe now is how morphine affects me, but I cannot say that it will affect everybody in this way.
As soon as I started to take morphine I realised that it centred my consciousness on the fourth dimensional plane. It totally disconnected me from any reality on the third dimensional plane, that means that I lost touch with all of reality as we experienced it in everyday waking life.
It seemed to trigger in me a spontaneous dream state that ran side-by-side with my everyday waking state. What I found very disconcerting was that I would switch from my everyday waking state, here and now, to the particular dream that I was having on the fourth dimensional plane. This would happen spontaneously and without warning. To say that confusion occurred would be an understatement. One minute I would be talking to Christine about a certain set of circumstances here and then suddenly be relating to Christine an experience I was having in a dream state on the fourth dimensional plane. For Christine, as the Observer, she heard a totally disjointed conversation. As time progressed, I found I was censoring what I would say to Christine before I would say it and check which reality I was commenting on before I opened my mouth.

Another very disconcerting side-effect of morphine is that the conscious mind could not make up its mind whether it was awake or asleep. And so halfway through a conversation with Christine I would suddenly drop my head forward and fall asleep. This could happen any time anywhere. Driving became an issue and I could not get behind the wheel any more. I would sit watching TV at night with Christine, watching a particular programme, and then suddenly snap awake half an hour later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all. This also happened while I was working on the computer. I would be writing something as part of the work that I am doing, and then the next thing I would wake-up 20 minutes later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all.
Other side-effects of the morphine was that it caused spontaneous muscle spasms. I had to be very careful of this one because I would sit on the settee with Christine drinking a cup of coffee, and the next minute my whole body would jump and the coffee would end up flying everywhere including into my lap. This was not good at all as it would shower the whole of the settee we were sitting on, and of course it is not our cottage that we are staying in.
Another side-effect was that I could not sleep at night. It caused me to experience a sense of foreboding. I found it very difficult just to lay in bed and stay in one position for longer than a few minutes without feeling a sense of paranoia creeping in.
Another side-effect was the fact that morphine interferes with the respiratory process, and one can find oneself very short of breath. This really screwed up my meditation in the sense that I do a lot of pranayama which is deep breathing. I found I could no longer do this any more. This of course caused me a lot of consternation as it is through my meditational practice that I define who I am. The taking of morphine totally disempowered me as the person I believe myself to be. I could not meditate, or sleep, and most of the time I found myself drifting into some kind of twilight zone without reference to time or space.

As I have said, the only viable thing that I can now do is to come off the morphine, which I have done for the last five days. I am now coming back into some kind of balance and feel at last like my old self once again. We are also seeing a great improvement in the pain and also the feeling of inflammation in my throat. We attribute this to the various alternative therapies that we have constantly been taking over the last two months, and we believe we are now starting to see some cellular change as a result of this. At the moment of writing this Christine and I are very optimistic that we are on the path of recovery. Once again, I would like to thank all the people who have sent me e-mails over the last couple of weeks, and who have not received a reply. As you can tell from the above I have not been in the space to be able to sit in front of the computer and write any replies to anybody. I am hoping that in the next few days I can remedy this.

As I have written everything above I am not decrying the use of morphine for one minute. I was talking to my GP today and he very rightly pointed out to me that the people who are experiencing intense pain 24/7 morphine give a much-needed respite. What one has to do whenever one is taking allopathic remedies as opposed to alternative remedies is to find the middle ground. Both have their place in the treatment of illness and it is up to us to find that for each of us.
I also write this account of my experiences with morphine so that all of you out there who may have patients who have to resort to morphine can give them advice from a place of informed decision based on what I have said. For those people who live a life of clarity of consciousness morphine will definitely prove to be a difficult path.

Consciousness Grid

2009-01-03T13:05:00.000-08:00

For those of you who have read the article that I wrote on death and dying, which I mentioned in an earlier blog, and in which I supplied the link so that you can download the article, I referred to the fact that I have spent a lot of work working with people who are going through the dying process. In the article, I detailed specifically the help I gave to my grandmother, and the process that she went through in her death, and which I had the good grace to help her with.

Also, in this time period, I had the experience of having to come to terms with the death of my mother, and after my grandmother's death, I participated and helped in the death of my stepfather of some years previous. All in all, I felt at this time, I had a good feel for the energy of death and how it affects consciousness. I had mused in the past that if ever I had cancer I would be able to deal with the situation and the effect it would have on me because of these past links. I have to say here and now, that I was completely caught unaware by the power and the energy of contracting cancer and the effect that this had on my consciousness.
I found that with the development of cancer in my mouth I started to log in to the cancer consciousness grid, and from there start to download all of the negative energy contained within the grid.

So what do I mean when I talk about the consciousness grid?
This is a term that has been bandied around quite a lot in the New Age. It refers to a group consciousness. We are all aware that when groups of humans come together in a like mind they create a group consciousness. This is very evident at football matches, and political rallies. When a group of people come together, regardless of the size of the group, and holds a particular focus, that the entire group adheres to and recognises, they create a single entity with many parts. Each part is the individualise consciousness of one of the members of the group. The group consciousness, however, can have its own agenda, and can put forward powerful ideas and doctrines, that, when each member of the group is subjected to these ideas, they find it irresistible to resist adopting these particular ideas and doctrines. Especially in groups of football supporters, it has been shown that people who in their everyday lives are normal and placid, can, when under the influence of the group, behave totally out of character.

In the New-Age, this has become a particularly popular concept. We have all heard of the term "the 100th monkey syndrome". This comes from a study of a particular species of monkey that inhabited a group of islands in the South Seas. It was found that if a group of monkeys on one particular island were taught to retrieve food in a particular way, all of the monkeys on the other islands started to acquire food in that way, without having any physical contact with the original group on the first island. This has come to prove that the only way that the monkeys could have learned the trick, was to be part of a group consciousness that extended beyond the physical and influenced consciousness. The scientist Rupert Sheldrake has done extensive work on this and calls the consciousness grid the Anthropomorphic Field.

If one could see the field of energy, it would look like a sphere of interconnecting lines of energy. This sphere of energy exists around the planet. In fact, wherever groups of human beings come together and create a group thoughtform, they create a sphere of energy around the planet. As you can imagine, the planet is surrounded by millions of such spheres that we are constantly logging in and logging out of everyday.
The sphere of energy which I call the cancer grid is particularly powerful. It contains all of the grief, anger, and fear that has and is being created around the illness of cancer for many thousands of years. When you are diagnosed with cancer, your consciousness merges with this grid and if you are not prepared will download all of the negative energy contained within it.
So it is that when you contract cancer you have two things to deal with. One is the illness itself, and the other is the effects of being connected to this group consciousness of cancer.
As I have mentioned above, even though I had done a lot of work with people who had suffered from cancer, and been around a lot of people who had died from cancer, when I merged with this grid after having been told I had cancer, I was totally unprepared for the massive download of negative energy that overwhelmed me at the time.

It has been shown by pioneers on the subject of death and dying, like Elizabeth Kubler Ross, and Stephen Levine, that when you are confronted with an illness that potentially will end your life, you have to come to terms with a number of emotional energies that potentially could overwhelm you.
The most powerful of these is anger, fear, grief, and depression. They do not come in any order, and you can find yourself adopting anyone at any time, and cycle through them endlessly. Not only do you have to deal with your own fears about dying, and contracting cancer, but you have to come to terms with the fact that you will be connected to the consciousness grid where you are potentially subjected to all of the fear and anger of everybody that has ever had cancer on this planet over thousands of years.
The major way of coming to terms with this and to lessen the effect is to be aware that this grid exists and to make a decision that you do not want, and will not be affected by it. This will dramatically reduce the download of negative energy that can overwhelm you.

It has been recognised in the treatment of cancer that a great part of the treatment is to remain positive and absolutely know that you are going to beat and overcome it. It is extremely important that you remain positive in regard to it. It can mean the difference between life and death.
One of the other results that comes from the existence of this grid is that certain healthcare professionals are also affected by it. Christine and I have found that when we have attended meetings or appointments with certain healthcare officials who are involved in the treatment of my cancer, we have left these meetings feeling depressed and dejected. One of the reasons for this is that these people, when they are talking to you, are projecting onto you their opinion as to the outcome of your illness. If, in their opinion, the outcome is that you will die, this will be projected onto you by these people and certainly have an effect on your consciousness at that time. If this happens, you have to shake yourself after leaving the meeting and reaffirm your commitment to overcoming the illness and sloughing off any negative energy that they may have projected onto you.

It could be interpreted from the above that I am being very hard on all of the people involved. However, none of this would exist if it was taken on board that cancer can be cured by alternative methods other than Allopathic means, and that consciousness grids to do exist that affected us every day of our lives.

To those people reading this, or people who may treat people with cancer I recommend the following. The word ‘cancer’ has such powerful connotations as indicated above, that when you are dealing with the illness yourself, I have found it extremely useful to give the cancer another name other than cancer. To do so diffuses the energy and allows you to still focus on the energy of the illness without being affected by the consciousness grid. The name I have chosen for my particular cancer is Deep River.
In another part of this blog I will explain and detail the communication I have had with this illness which I call Deep River and show by giving cancer another name you can become intimate with the illness to such a degree that there is an extremely good chance that you can overcome it and let it go once and for all.
Much love.

Kevin.

New Direction

2009-01-03T11:12:00.000-08:00

Hi All.
Once again, I must apologise for the big gap between postings on this blog site. For the last six weeks Christine and I have been through the most difficult time. It started with me getting up one morning, and halfway through my first cup of coffee, the most intense pain hit me on the left side of my face. Unable to bear it, I resorted to calling the emergency services, and found myself in the emergency room sometime later. Over a period of three hours, I was given several shots of morphine, which eventually brought the pain under control.

Since this time, this pain has re-occurred at various times but in the last four weeks has started to occur at least once every 24 hours. This has made it extremely difficult for Christine and I to live a normal life, because when we are out and this pain starts to come in, I find myself very disabled and unable to function. This can be quite embarrassing if you find yourself in the middle of Asda.
For the last four weeks we have been attempting to find a cause of this pain. I am very happy to say that we have now done that, but I am still experiencing the pain and having to come to terms with it.

The long and the short of it is the fact that the kind of medication that I am taking has adverse side effects, which is the ability to drop your blood pressure. This is what has been happening to me. All of the medication that I am taking at this moment in time are opiate derivatives, this means that they are derived from opium. One of the major side effects of opium is its ability to affect blood pressure. So the scenario is as follows: I start to feel lightheaded, and the pain starts to come down my left hand side. I immediately take morphine, which drops my blood pressure further, causing me more pain, which causes me to take more morphine, which causes my blood pressure to drop even further etc. After 1 to 2 hours of taking morphine every 20 minutes, there comes a time when I am so out of it that the pain just disappears. Unfortunately, the effect of the morphine is so somnambulistic that I cannot function normally.

Christmas was a particularly difficult time. After spending some time in the hospice, of which I will talk later in this blog, we tried various ways of administering painkilling drugs in the effort to find a balance. When I left the hospice, the drugs that I was taking were, a drug that is normally given to control epilepsy but also is very good at controlling nerve pain, and the morphine was given through a patch, very much like a no-smoking patch. I also had a bottle of liquid morphine that I could use as a backup in case the pain became extreme.
What I found was that the morphine patches introduced into my system a continuous flow of morphine, and it was this that I had the problem with. As the morphine integrated itself into my body, I found myself acting as though I had just drank 12 pints of beer, and that is okay if you want to feel drunk all the time. It was not what I wanted to experience at 8 AM on Christmas morning. I was so out of it on Christmas day that I spent most of the time asleep in bed. Of course, Christine found this very difficult because we had arranged to spend Christmas together, and so she found herself having to spend Christmas alone while I was asleep upstairs, hence the difficult time.

The ray of realisation started to come in after I felt intuitively to buy a BP monitor. When I was experiencing one of the episodes of extreme pain, we took a measurement of my blood pressure and found that it was extremely low. Having gone on the Internet to find out the causes of low blood pressure, we found that the medication I was taking was synonymous with this condition. Since discovering this I have now stopped using the morphine patches and only take it in liquid form when I need to.
At the same time as all this was going on, a copy of ‘The Secret’ came into our possession.
It was extremely refreshing to find out that they were saying, and teaching, the same things that Christine and I teach in the workshop ‘The Seven Laws Of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’.
In The Secret, they focus on one of the laws of abundance which is the Law of Giving and Receiving. If anybody has watched this DVD, they will find that using this one law is very powerful indeed. For Christine and me it was a great gift. It allowed us to see, through our walking the path of conventional medicine, how much we had deviated from our own perception of where we should be in relation to alternative therapies. We had allowed ourselves to integrate consciousness with the allopathic veiw that there is no cure for cancer. We have found ourselves gradually succumbing to this idea, and losing hope as to whether I would ever overcome this condition. I am happy to say that watching The Secret has allowed Christine and myself to see how much we have deviated from our normal perception, and it has allowed us to snap back into where we were. For myself personally, it has allowed me to gather myself mentally and sort this out once and for all.

Where I am now, in relation to my family and the doctors and nurses that are treating me, is that I have a terminal illness, and the inevitable outcome will be that I will probably not see another Christmas. Christine and I feel this projection whenever we are in the space of these people. Watching The Secret has taken us back into where we should be, knowing absolutely that we are the creators of our own reality, and as such can create any future that we desire. Since observing this, Christine and I have undergone a major transformation through Christmas and New Year, and we now find ourselves totally rejuvenated and recharged with spiritual energy in order to recreate our future.

At the moment of writing this blog, I am organising workshops for myself throughout next year. I will be doing a major Angelic Reiki update in England, and the major part of this update will be all of the lessons and techniques that I have learnt to overcome cancer. When I look back at everything that I have gone through, I see there has been a pattern, and that pattern is a full healing system for anybody who has or anybody who knows somebody who has cancer. I am so confident that this will work that I am arranging for these workshops in the future. The fact that I am now designated terminally ill, and the future fact that I will be here to tell the tale, will be proof that what we will teach works.
I intend to put down in written form everything that I am talking about, so that each Angelic Reiki practitioner and teacher will have a proven technique for helping people overcome cancer. My focus for the next 12 months will be to pass this knowledge out to everybody.

The other focus that I will be putting my attention on will be to re-energise the workshop ‘ The Seven Laws of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’. As I have said, the DVD The Secret just deals with one of these laws, so how much more powerful if we integrate the full Seven Laws of Abundance. It is my desire to share these seven laws with all of you so that from this moment in time we can totally clear this perception that we cannot earn enough money to support ourselves or create our future. I am absolutely sure in my knowledge that these laws work, they cannot fail to do so and I am staking my life on it, and so if you are up to it, we will walk the path together and show people how we can create any reality that we want for ourselves.

As I have to stay in England for the next 12 months, mainly to be able to get the medical support that I need, I will be teaching most of these workshops by myself in England. If any of you are interested in the Angelic Reiki update, or the Manifestation Workshop then please get in touch with me.

And so it is that we now move on and to all intents and purposes create a miracle, where I will walk away from a terminal illness using only my intention. As always, it seems I have done this as an example to all that this energy that we have been given truly works.
I would like to thank all of you who have sent me e-mails of support in the last six weeks, but I have not been able to reply due to the intensity of my medical condition.
Much love.
Kevin.

Where am I?

2008-12-25T15:36:00.000-08:00

hello to you all and Merry Christmas.

I have had a number of e-mails concerned that I have not written anything in the blog for the last two weeks. Unfortunately, the difficult time that Christine and I had been experiencing due to the manipulation of my medication has continued during my stay in the hospice.

As I have said before, the medical professionals who are trying to look after me are coming from a place of trying to give me longer periods where I do not experience pain. This has involved giving me medication which is stronger than what I have been taking up to now. I have often been warned by spirit that if I took very dense chemicals it would affect me in a profoundly negative way. This has been the case.

When I first undertook to write this blog I felt that no matter what would happen I would always be in the space to dictate something into the computer that would allow me to pass to you the experience. I have not been prepared for the depth of pain that I have been experiencing, and how that pain disables me in every aspect of normal life. I hope to write more about this later in the blog.

I am hoping that now we are coming into a place of being able to take this medication in such a way so that it does not completely wipe me out in consciousness. I would dearly like to continue working in writing this blog, and writing the articles that I often put forward, and indeed arranging workshops for next year. Although the prognoses by the medical professionals is very bleak, Christine and I do not accept this prognoses, and definitely feel that we will work through this and I shall be teaching again next year.

The first workshop that we intend to teach together since I stopped teaching 12 months ago will be the seven-day Angelic Reiki workshop in Luxor, Egypt, in February of this year. Anybody reading this blog please go to our website and check out the dates. All I can tell you is that being so close to the doorway which leads out of this reality has had a profound effect on my consciousness and the way that I connect to spirit. It is my profound desire to be part of this workshop so that I can be that open doorway for everybody who attends the workshop, and so we can ground some of this most amazing energy that is trying its best to connect to the Earth at this time.

As I have said above, the last seven days have been extremely difficult in that the intense, acute pain has been with me every day for the last seven days. I give my beautiful wife, Christine, much praise and gratitude for preparing the most amazing Christmas dinner today, even though I was laid in bed upstairs pretty disabled and unable to celebrate the occasion. However, as evening approached we were able to have the most perfect Christmas dinner together and celebrate the occasion.

I am hoping that as stability comes in over the next few days, I may dedicate my time to recording all of the things that I wanted to put on the blogger for the last two weeks but have been unable to do so. If you feel drawn to understanding what having cancer is all about, then please look at this blog.

I will try to get out a Christmas message from Christine and myself, and our company which is The Foundation of Cosmic Fire. I cannot promise anything, however, but I am hoping to put this together and send it out to each one of you who have supported us through this difficult time and year.

Christine and I are ever in the space of gratitude for having been able to teach you, know you, and call on you in these difficult times.

Much love to you all.

Kevin.

Preparing the Way

2008-12-12T12:05:00.000-08:00

Having spent the last three days in the hospice, here in Bradford, England, it has made me reflect on where I am now in relation to the cancer that I have.

It is interesting to know that when you become a resident in a hospice the entire focus and perception of the staff towards you is about creating the most perfect space for you to go through the dying process. One of the first things I was asked is "If your heart stops, or if you have a heart attack, would you want us to revive you?". It has brought home to me the position that I am in, in regard to the perception of the people who are treating me for the illness that I have which is cancer.
It is worth mentioning here, however, that Christine and myself do not subscribe to this view. Even though, on the face of it, it would appear that we have come to the end of the road in what we can do in order to overcome this cancer, both of us are wise enough to know that the most amazing thing can happen in the next moment. We believe that that will be the case in my case.

Part of the reason I am writing this blog, is to give insight into how you, or your patients, would experience the process of leaving the incarnation. It therefore seems to me, to be of service, if I put myself in that place, which is easy to do here, and to share with you the process I would go through if that is what I believed was true for me now.

For those of you who have read my article on death and dying, or may have looked at other sources where this subject is discussed, you will know that the whole process of dying and what happens to a person when they go through it is known. This knowledge of the path that we walk when we take our last breath has been known for centuries, and is part of what Christine and I call the Ancient Wisdom. This knowledge has been held by the Tibetans more than any other race over the last 10,000 years. Reading the book ' The Tibetan Book of the Dead', or ' The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying' by Sogyal Rinpoche, we'll give you insight into the Tibetan philosophy on this subject.
To reiterate from my article on this subject, in the West there is no preparation done by people approaching death for the process that they will go through and how to prepare for this journey. I liken it to taking a journey in our reality. If you were to take a journey to a new country that you had never visited, you would buy books and maps, source material about the way of life, the climate, the people etc. You would know what kind of clothes to take, what kind of money to use, the kind of food you will eat, the kind of weather you will encounter. Any of us going on such a journey makes these kinds of preparations. Death is the last journey that you will take in the physical body, yet we never read the guide books which shows us how to get through the process. These are the books listed above. It seems to me rather cavalier that we would undertake such an important journey without knowing how to navigate the path or to even give it much thought before the actual event. It seems to me the highest folly to do this when it has such an importance as to the next incarnation you will hold on this planet.

So how do you prepare for death?
As I have said, it is very easy for me to put myself in this place, being where I am now in the hospice. If I believed that if this was the journey I was taking at this moment in time I would do the following:-

Be aware that the last two years of your life in this physical body, and the spiritual work that you ave done while attached to this body, will colour the next incarnation you will take on this planet. This includes the areas of study that you are involved in, the connections to spirit that you have, the groups that you are working with and the people in those groups, and the focus of your spiritual work. I would put a lot of thought into the kind of incarnation I would like to create when I return in a physical body. For the last 12 months I would have been reading and practising the kind of spiritual philosophy that I would like to base my next incarnation on. For me, where I am now, this has been a renewed interest in the Qabala, and magical ritual. I would review the whole of the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime, and I would feel what part of that work has excited me the most and decide if this is what I will follow exclusively in the next incarnation.
I will decide if I want to have a relationship in my next incarnation or to follow spiritual practice totally focused on the work. I will feel and decide if I wish to experience the energy of parenting again and using parenting as a way of grounding my spiritual work.
I would look at abundance issues and see how I have created abundance for myself in this lifetime. If I have found it difficult to create abundance, I will look at how that has influenced me in this incarnation and create a pathway in the next so that I might easily walk the path again without having to do the large amount of work I had to do in this lifetime in order to ground the concept.
I would also look at power issues, how you have to embrace power as part of who you are in order to manifest spiritual energy and ground it in the world and to decide if the use of power would play a significant role in my next incarnation
Also leadership issues, about standing in front of many people and showing people who you are and speaking your truth where others may not want to hear it or agree with it. I would also look at whether I wanted to pass my spiritual knowledge out as a teacher or in writing, and to be a figurehead in the world to ground spiritual concepts and pass them to others.
I would also assess how health could be a focus of doing spiritual work, and whether I would use health as a way of self-realisation as I have in this lifetime. This would also include creating the perfect kind of body that I would desire in the next lifetime, whether that be athletic, or your average kind of body.
I would also consider where I wish to live, whether that be in the East or the West. I would recognise the fact that most of the revolutionary spiritual work that is going to be done over the next 2000 years is going to take place in the West, and I would specifically focus on the country that I wish to be born into.

Whilst constantly visualising and creating this next incarnation, imagining it as perfectly as possible using all of the five senses to make it a reality, I would also focus on clearing all of the ties to this incarnation. This would include:-

I would feel all of the emotional connections to people, places, or things that are around me now and if I feel there are any imbalances I would try my best to bring balance to every situation. I would try to make sure that I will leave this incarnation without a desire to do anything on the third dimensional plane. I would try my best to let go of any attachment to any third dimensional attraction.
I would look at unfinished business, especially with family and friends.
I would look at the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime and try to pass it over to other people to carry it on when I leave. I would try to make sure that the energy that channelled through me would then pass to the others in perfect harmony. I would also create that I would have a link once I had passed into spirit with these people, to guide and support them from wherever I find myself once I have left the incarnation.

Very importantly, I would start to walk the path of my last breath. This would be to really feel what it would be like to go through the dying process, to take my last breath, and to energetically leave the physical body. Again, I would use all of the five senses to create the sensations and perceptions of this as clearly as I could. This would ensure that I would not have any surprises, and I would be prepared for any eventuality in order to make a smooth transition from this dimension to the next.

I would feel all of the connections to spirit that I have created up to this moment in time. I would connect to all of the beings that I work with now and establish a powerful connection to them so that as I go through this transition, this connection will enable me to find myself on the plane of existence in which they are now. I would affirm my connection to the Spiritual Hierarchy, and again I would feel what it would be like to be in the presence of all of the beings are that I have worked with over the last 20 years in my spiritual work and I would really look forward to seeing them all again.
I would feel the joy of being reunited with all of my friends and family that have gone before me, and all of my brothers and sisters in spirit that have supported me. I would see myself in the most perfect space in spirit as a shining light connecting to all of my students here and passing the wisdom, energy and beauty of spirit to them from where I find myself.

I would see myself in that space now.

Lastly, I would go through all of the meditations that we teach here now that enables us to cut all of the attachments that are no longer necessary in this lifetime. This includes the Michael Kama cutting meditation, one of the most powerful meditations that we teach that allows you to strip away all of the baggage that you no longer need. I would be listening to these meditations now in order to prepare myself for the journey.

It is my recommendation that anybody who is reading these words should contemplate them and remember them, so that when it is your time to let go of this incarnation and to return back to all of our beloved brothers and sisters in spirit, that we walk the most perfect path to do that. That we all end up in the most amazing place gathered together again in brotherhood to create the next level of spirit on earth.

Painful times

2008-12-04T14:31:00.000-08:00

Hi All.
Once again I must apologise to all of you who have been tuning into this blog to check out the words of wisdom that are dripping from my mouth as I walk through this journey with cancer.

Unfortunately, the difficult period that I find myself in since I last posted a blog has continued. The problem has been that the medication I am being given is not controlling the pain which I am experiencing through the cancer.
As we go through different combinations of drugs and the timing in taking them, it is causing me to experience different degrees of being well, and not feeling too great. As is always the case with people who have cancer, you have your good days and your bad days. Over the last three weeks I am afraid that the bad days have outweighed the good days.

I am very happy to say, however, that we have come up with the solution of me going into the local Marie Curie hospice next Monday or Tuesday, so that they can monitor the input of the different kinds of drugs they think will help me get through this period of intense pain. I will use this time to focus on this blog, and to go into the feelings that I have experienced through this illness over the last 12 months, and I should have the time to be able to devote myself to writing a comprehensive account of my experiences.

One of the things that is causing the problem, and is worth noting for healers that may come across people who do spiritual work who contract cancer, is that the practices that we do in our meditations can cause shifts in our energy bodies, which when integrated with the density of manufactured chemical remedies, can cause problems.
I myself have practised pranayama for many years which purifies the etheric body, and your Lightbody. The downside to this is that if you intake anything which is of a dense vibration, and that could be food or drink, or in this case medication, it can have an abrasive effect on the subtle body. It is this effect which I am finding difficult at this time as we go through the range of drugs that are available to me to help me get through the pain caused by the cancer.

Because of where the cancer is situated, the pain is associated with the nerves in my mouth and neck which are being aggravated by the cancerous growth. As anybody who has suffered toothache will attest, this pain can be quite intense. It also seems to be triggered without warning, without any kind of outside stimulus, and this is quite disconcerting as it can strike any time, anywhere, without warning.

I am also finding having to go through this quite difficult.
As I have always been a person who resisted taking conventional medicine, I have to swallow humble pie, and give in to the expertise of the professional doctors who are attempting to help me at this time. The medication that they are recommending are medications that are usually used in people who are depressed, or who have epileptic fits. Just this description by itself can make most of us in the holistic health arena wince at the prospect of having to take such aggressive chemicals.
One of the lessons of having cancer, is to let go of one's firm beliefs and judgements, and to accept the space in which I find myself at this time. I must trust the people who I have drawn to myself to help me. And even though these chemicals are not the first thing on the list that I would take, I must trust that in the moment that they are the best that is available at this time.

I am also finding it very difficult, because of not feeling very well at all, actually sitting down at the computer doing any kind of work. I have to be very disciplined to get up and move around day by day. It would be very easy to just go to bed and stay there. I think if I did this, though, it would have long-term detrimental effect on my outlook, and I feel I must keep going in trying to maintain some kind of daily routine. I hope, therefore, to be able to start to post blog on a regular basis.
Much love.
Kevin.

Article

2008-11-25T22:54:00.000-08:00

For those of you new to this blog, please follow this link to download an article I wrote recently on death and dying. http://www.angelicreikimagic.com/latest.html

Much Love.
Kevin.

Difficult times

2008-11-25T22:48:00.000-08:00

The last 12 days have been extremely difficult, hence the large gap between postings.
About 12 days ago, we had a visit from our local healthcare professionals. These included our community District Nurse, the Macmillan Nurse that deals specifically with mouth cancer, and the Marie Curie Hospice nurse who liaises with the Marie Curie Hospice for the Bradford area. This visit, which was prearranged, was to determine my needs if any. In the conversation, it emerged that they felt the fact I had to get up at 4 AM every day to take my medication was not acceptable. It was proposed that I try some different kind of medication that was longer lasting and would allow me to get through a whole night without having to be woken. It was, then, that this new medication was proposed.

After collecting this medication from the pharmacy, I started to take it over two days. It became increasingly apparent, however, that this medication was not having the same effect on the pain as the previous medication I was taking. I endured the pain for two days thinking that there was an integration time when this medication would kick in. Unfortunately, this did not happen. I then decided to go back onto my original pain medication, but unfortunately, breaking the cycle caused problems. I found myself suffering from a number of side effects of both sets of medications. These side effects included nausea, constipation, restlessness, dehydration, extreme exhaustion etc. As well as these side effects my general overall outlook was that of being very very ill.

Whilst I was going through this, we also had an appointment with the chemotherapy registrar, where they try to convince Christine and myself to consider again the chemotherapy option. And again, we explained how we did not have confidence in the therapy. One of the things that emerged, which caused some consternation, was the fact that it seemed natural for the doctors to continue to prescribe medication to alleviate side-effects from previous medication. In my time as a healer, I have come across this many times, where a patient was on a whole regime of tablets, one being taken to alleviate the side-effects of the previous. In some cases, these patients were on as much as up to 9 tablets three times a day.

The same situation arose in the meeting with the healthcare professionals. When the medication failed to kick in I called the Marie Curie nurse to let him know that I was having problems. The main problem was nausea from the new medication. Again, the response was to prescribe another medication to alleviate the nausea. In all of our dealings with the different nurses and doctors our overall impression has been one of amazement at how easily medication is given out, one on top of the other, to try to bring balance to the whole process. Of course, Christine and myself, who believe in a holistic approach, even taking one of these medications, which in most cases is a synthetic chemical, is a big deal. The ease in which these people were willing to prescribe more and more medication in their attempts to bring balance to an already uncontrollable situation did cause some consternation.

One of the other medications which I am taking, which I really resist, is a liquid form of morphine. This is the strongest medication I have to deal with. Although it is natural, it does cause me many problems. One of the main ones is dehydration, which causes major constipation. The other, is that it can leave you very spacey, and I find myself sleeping most of the day. This also causes problems between Christian and myself, as it is destroying any kind of relationship that we are having. It is a bit of a Catch-22 situation, for without the morphine the pain becomes unbearable, so I have to bite the bullet and try to keep a balance between sleeping and trying to stay awake in order to lead some kind of natural life.

Yesterday, we had to go see a registrar at the Marie Curie Hospice, who deals specifically with pain management. If we cannot get this cancer under control, and it continues to spiral into an inevitable conclusion, I will find myself on increasingly more powerful medication which will disable me in consciousness, preventing me from doing the work that I wish to do, including writing this blog. I have had to make a resolution, that no matter how deeply the medication affects me, that I should continue to put some input into this blog in order to fulfil the purpose that I created it for, that being to share this experience with you all. It feels important for me, that I continue to do this. It also helps me to talk things through for myself, and allows me to get a grip of what is going on for me.

I have now come back into some kind of balance and so I am looking forward to sharing my insights. Over the next few days, I am hoping to dictate into the blog all of the thoughts and experiences that I have missed over the last 12 days and continue to relate the quite profound insights I gained on my recent trip to Egypt.

Dying is Okay.

2008-11-16T04:33:00.000-08:00

Dying is Okay.
How many times, when we have heard that somebody has died, have we said, "Well, it must have been their time." Or, "When it's your time to go, it's your time to go, and there is nothing you can do about it." Who decides when it is time for an incarnation to end? In the West, this subject is surrounded by myth and conjecture. However, the process does exist, and is known.

As the West slowly catches up with the teachings of Eastern mysticism, more and more of the mechanics of how the universe works is gradually being introduced into the western psyche. For instance, it is widely accepted in the Eastern philosophies that man incarnates over and over again into earthly existence until such time as he has mastered the third dimensional plane. This concept is a cornerstone of the Ancient Wisdom, which is now being widely taught throughout the West under the guise of Reiki and other healing modalities.

Even in the West the concept of the soul is debated, but what it actually is and its origins and framework is very rarely discussed either in conventional religion or even esoteric metaphor.
So what exactly is the soul?
Everything that we know and perceive is an expression of the One Life in manifestation. If we try to keep it simple, it can be said of the Divine that it has two aspects; one which is in permanent stillness, and one which is in perpetual motion. It is the interplay between these two aspects of the Divine which causes evolution as we understand it. It is the prime duality. That which is in perpetual stillness contemplates itself as the Divine. This contemplation causes a reflection of the Divine to be created within the matter of the universe. This reflection as it is projected into the matter of the universe, causes that matter to structure itself according to the patterns in consciousness which is the perception of the Divine, of itself. The Divine is then stimulated by its projected self so that it forms new concepts as to what it is. It is these new concepts which issue forth from the central stillness, gathering matter of the different planes of existence to themselves to form composite bodies, which journey through the projected universe to experience that projection, and then return to the central stillness to integrate with the Divine in order for the Divine to evolve internally. These concepts, which are projected from the Divine central stillness are known as Divine Sparks and have the ability to evolve separately from their creator. Humanity is such a wave of Divine Sparks.

The patterns in consciousness which are created by the divine contemplating itself are known as archetypes. All of creation, as it turns around the central stillness, consists of a small number of Divine patterns or archetypes. The archetype which is synonymous with consciousness and its manifestation in matter is the musical Octave. Each octave has 12 different vibrational levels, the highest being indistinguishable from the most refined, and the lowest vibrating at the densest, heaviest level. We, as a race, manifested on the Earth at this time are a fifth dimensional consciousness, centred in the fourth dimension, and inhabiting a third dimensional body. It can be said of our Soul Self that it is permanently on the sixth Dimension and exists simultaneously, as do all the bodies of manifestation throughout the 12 levels going back to the central stillness. It can also be said of the Soul Self that it is eternal viewed from our limited perception here on earth. It was created and came into total balance during a previous manifestation of this galaxy and solar system. For us, it is the perfection that we constantly strive for and seek guidance from.

Having talked about the soul, and its origins, it poses the question, "Where do we come from? What causes our manifestation here in 3-D?".
As we have stated above, reality turns on a small number of archetypes, and we have shown the prime archetype which causes manifestation. Thus an entity, our Soul, contemplates itself, and through that contemplation creates a mirror image of itself in the lower dimensions to where it exists. The same archetype comes into play at soul level and it is our Soul, contemplating its nature and asking the question, "Who am I?", which causes our manifestation to occur.
This process can be compared to the dreams that we experience in this lifetime. It is widely recognised that if we are working through some problem of self-identity, it will cause a dream to occur around that questioning. When we have a dream, we project a persona that would look like us or not, but will go through an experience that we create in order to resolve a point of contention as to what is right for us. In the Ancient Wisdom sleeping is known as the Little Death, this is because when we go to sleep and temporarily leave our physical body to experience a higher plane, the process is identical to when we take our last breath in this incarnation. The difference being that in real death it is permanent.
So when would an incarnation come to an end? This would happen when the Soul, through it's created manifestation at the third dimensional level, resolves the issue which caused that manifestation to be created in the first place.
As the soul resolves the issue, it starts to call back the projection that it has created in the lower three dimensions to where it exists. In the manifesting bodies which exist on each of these dimensional levels, this recall is felt as a tremor which ripples through the energy body of each manifestation causing energetic shifts which will ultimately lead to the disintegration of that particular body.

As the ascension process integrates more and more into humanity, it will cause latent empathic tendencies to surface in everybody. As this ability emerges, people will start to perceive the impulses being directed into their incarnation by their own soul. They will start to perceive why they were created and the goal of that particular incarnation. They will also perceive when that goal has been reached and when the incarnation is drawing to a close
They will recognise that they have completed their mission successfully. They will gather their friends around them and celebrate a job well done. As the time to leave the incarnation approaches, there will be much celebrating as their beloved brother or sister returns back to the Masters on the sixth dimensional plane. There is no grief, only joy of the merging back into Spirit of their friend.

The work of getting death to be recognised as an acceptable part of life is still in its infancy in the West. Even amongst lightworkers, there is still an attachment to the physical body. To contemplate a life without the connection to the physicality of a loved one still causes great pain.
Where cancer is concerned, to accept that the cancer will end the incarnation is viewed as a defeat in the West. One has to constantly battle to keep ahead of the illness as it tries to spread throughout the physical body; anything less than this battle is viewed as a failure. However, one has to die of something, and when the appointed time comes to each of us, when our Soul calls us back, how much more peaceful would we be and content with our lot if we recognised it was all part of the plan?
For those of us who recognise the call, but who are in relationship with a person who does not embrace the spiritual perspective, this can be a particularly difficult time. On the one hand, we are ready and willing to return back up the planes, to merge with our Soul and to become one with our friends in spirit, and on the other, being aware of the great pain that our partner is in due to our imminent demise.

My feeling is that this situation will not change in the foreseeable future. All we can hope for is that the knowledge and wisdom about death and dying is vigorously put forward into the world to alleviate the fear and suffering which is generated around death.

Group Healing with Soul

2008-11-10T12:41:00.000-08:00

Hi all.
As promised, please find below links to a hexagram graphic that is available for download off a free file hosting website. All you have to do is click 'download' and specify where you wish the file to be placed. I was guided to place the names of all of the people who are on the healing list within the centre of this graphic. Being aware of the correspondances of the planets, the energies surrounding each person on the list, will prove to be beneficial.
I suggest that we all tune-in to these names as close to the Full Moon as possible, which is 06:19am GMT Thursday 13th November.
Each of these people has cancer.

Names.
Luke Gilpin, Fort Worth, Texas, USA.
Sam Wilkes, England.
Kevin Core, currently in England.

Hexagram graphic.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tyrnsmnk0wm

Hexagram correspondances.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/3kjwimgnzzy

Also as promised, I have placed on the same website, the meditation I was given at the Great Pyramid 10 days ago for anybody who wishes to participate when Christine and I do it with the Saltaire Meditation Group on Friday 14th November, in England. It is in mp3 format and lasts 20 mins. Please forgive the croaky voice!

Soul Self meditation in mp3 format.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tzqzxoyygmm

Hope you enjoy the meditation. I will continue to update the blog throughout this week.
Much love.
Kevin.

Back at Last

2008-11-06T00:25:00.000-08:00

Hi All.
We are finally back in the cottage in Gilstead, England after much drama on the trip. Because of the bad weather at Heathrow, England, my flight from Amsterdam was cancelled. I was re-routed directly to Manchester but unfortunately my bag wasn't. All of my pain medication was in the bag and so I have been without it for 24 hours. It was a bit of a challenge yesterday as I was exposed to the full force of the effects of the cancer in my throat. Luckily, the bag was delivered last night at 9.30pm, and so I have been topping-up with painkillers all night and now am back in a stable place.

I am looking forward to getting down and sharing the insights gained over the last 10 days in Egypt. As I have said, I am going to organise a group healing for anybody suffering from cancer, to be performed on the new and full moons. If you know of anybody that you feel may benefit from this group healing and has cancer please e-mail me their name and location to
yophielangel@btconnect.com
I will put out a list containing these names a couple of days before the moon times.

I am also guided to put out a meditation to share which will connect you to your soul energy. Christine and I will be doing this meditation at 8.0pm in Friday, 14th November. I will record this meditation and place it on a file-sharing site where you can pick it up a.s.a.p..

Lastly, I hope you have all been picking up the amazing shift in consciousness which happened yesterday with the election of Barak Obalma as the next 44th President of the United States. The US was created with the sole intention of forming the next root race which will take us into the next 2,000 years. It will be the anchor for the much talked about and hoped for Golden or New Age. This was forseen 200 years ago and the formation of the US was sponsored and supported by the Rosicrucean Society, a powerful esoteric secret society centred in Europe. The whole ethos and phylosophy of the US constitution is based and draws on the Ancient Wisdom that came out of the temples of Egypt.
With the election of Barak Obalma yesterday, the American people and the people of the world have chosen the path of change which will inextricably set us on the path of creating the Golden Age. There is no more waiting and hoping. The time is now. I urge all of you to hold a place in your meditations, healings and prayers for Barak Obalma as he is a high being here to do a difficult task and needs our energatic support.
Much love to all of you.
Kevin.

From Cairo

2008-11-03T17:21:00.000-08:00

Hi All.
Writing this short blog sat in Cairo airport at 3.30am waiting for my London Flight. Have had an interesting week in Luxor with many insights. I feel that the incarnation which is interfaced with this one also had a throat problem in the same place, and since doing healing for both of us have felt stronger.

Will post these insights as soon as I get back to England along with the details of the healing group and group meditation I have been guided to put together.
I am also looking forward to seeing Christine again as I miss her a lot when we are apart. She is sat in the airport in Mexico City as I write this. We will arrive at Manchester within 10 mins of each other at 4.0pm today.
Till later, much love.
Kevin.

Mexico City

2008-11-01T21:34:00.000-07:00

Hi All.
As you know, Christine has been teaching a 7 Day Angelic Reiki workshop in Mexico City while I have been here in Luxor, Egypt, connecting to my past incarnations that may have been causing the cancer in my throat. This is the workshop that we teach where we give the complete Angelic Reiki system over seven days.
As always, we should be totally aware of everything that is going on around us because in truth this reality is reflecting back to us our perception of who we are. It is no surprise, then, that what Christine created and experienced in Mexico City is also part of our attempt to understand why we have co-created the cancer in my throat. It therefore feels appropriate that I should share with you what Christine has just sent me this morning of her experience of this workshop.

"Whilst it is fresh in my mind I would like to share with you all something of the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki Workshop that has just finished here just outside Mexico City.
The workshop took place in a room next to a wooden cabin in a steep wooded valley about an hour outside Mexico City. The workshop was going fine, very much as usual, but outside the workshop space I was feeling very unwelcome and somewhat threatened. At 4:30 a.m. on the morning of the fifth day I awoke with the feeling of being alienated and threatened becoming quite intense. Others in the group especially Isauro, a Mexican Shaman, had experienced the same. Kevin and I had our usual phone conversation early the next morning. He had been picking up something all week, but the e-mail that he had sent me about it never arrived.

He had been picking up that this energy was to do with the Aztec Elders, whose energy and presence in the etheric was particularly strong in this valley. From my experiences with the Mari in New Zealand, I should have understood and known better. I had not introduced myself energetically to the elders of the land. So after our telephone conversation I sang a Maori song to the Aztec Elders, it was the best I knew at the time. I opened myself up energetically to present who I was and said that I honoured their wisdom and wished to work with them. I also activated my Merkabah in my medication that morning to the speeds of the Aztec wisdom of the archetypes at each dimensional level. The energy became harmonious.
At the start of the workshop that morning I shared my experience with the group. Realisations and tears touched a number of people in the group as we came to understand that the recognition of the Angelic archetypes through the Angelic Reiki attunements reconnected the group with the archetypal wisdom of the Aztec Elders and a realisation of what this really meant dawned.
Because Angelic Reiki, is totally working with archetypes, it has made it possible for the Mexican people in the workshop (and all those who become attuned to Angelic Reiki in Mexico) to reconnect and reawaken to the ancient wisdom of this land. We also saw that the poverty and violence that is here in Mexico is primarily due to their disconnection from their abundant wisdom.The only place where I have experienced the energy of the land, its ancient wisdom and teaching of the elders to be so potent and present is in New Zealand.
Isauro shared something of what he was being shown. As he was doing this, the powerful Shaman that he is on the etheric, the grandfather of this land that he is, shone through him. I was guided immediately to bow to him and honour him as the Grandfather. At this point he shared that he had been shown this 15 days ago, and then in deep recognition he was overcome with emotion and tears ran down his face. He asked if he could bring into the workshop space his alter and do a full ceremony honouring the ancestors. This he did the next morning.

Kevin and I were formally embraced by the Aztec Elders and in the ceremony we were thanked and honoured for the wisdom that we brought to Mexico. Kevin was given the name "Cuautli", the Eagle and myself, "Yolotzin" little heart. This is the little heart of the Eagle as the messenger of love and wisdom from spirit. I will put a short video on u-tube.
This brought more emotion and tears from the group as they too started to embrace the amazing cultural heritage and connect to the Elders. From my travels in the late 90's early 20's I hold in my energy body blessings from the Mauri, Aborigines, Tibetan monks and Hopi Indians, cultures that all understand the Ancient Wisdom and are connected to Galactic consciousness. In the part of the master attunement where one breathes in light through the pranic light tube into our hearts and extended it to the rest of the galaxy, connecting to all beings of the galaxy, I was guided to extend this part of the meditation to connect in a deeper way to the galactic elders and connect together all tribes of galactic wisdom on the earth. As the group were sharing their experiences of the attunement I became aware that a new connection with the galaxy had been created, and a greater participation, by the beings of this planet in the galaxy has been opened up; the opportunity for us to participate fully as galactic begins.
At the end of the group share I shared this information. As I was doing this Isaro perceived that the Aztec Elders of this valley were imprinting a confirmation of this on the rocks outside.This morning (the last day) as part of opening up the workshop space Isaro summoned the Aztec Elders. The honour, respect and gratitude that was expressed to Kevin and myself was amazing. I was so touched by the recognition of the wisdom that Kevin holds that my tears flowed, as did for many of the group. I was given gifts from the hearts of the people of Mexico to bring back to Kevin. I had the honour of being gifted with my first feather. The feather of a parrot symbolising one who speaks wisdom and says funny things.
It is an amazing honour to be received in this way by the elders of the land. Isaro had been part of the ceremony in 2005, held very close to where the workshop is taking place. This had been a ceremony of 80 drums to bring balance to the negative energies of the earth. The sound of Iskur's drum had felt flat and awful so he had not played it since receiving it in 2005, but had been guided to bring it to the workshop that morning. That morning, as part of opening up the space, I called in the four directions and honoured the Devic Lords and Archangels of each of these cardinal directions, as Kevin and I often do. The devic energy was very potent and the honouring of the land in this way made it possible for Isaro's drum to be played and to make a beautiful sound resonated with the heart and the earth.

I have only been teaching ORDINARY! Angelic Reiki Workshop........, opening the space, reading the attunement from the manual and bringing in the energy through the healing practices.What we do, working with this Angelic Reiki energy is extraordinary and it is only when experiences like this last seven days occurs that we realise how extraordinary this gift of Angelic Reiki really is. I will just go get another tissue. I am deeply grateful to the people of Mexico for their amazing Love and Welcome and of cause to the Elders.
Love Christine.
PICTURES ON THE YAHOO GROUP SITE"

Cancer, your number's up!

2008-10-30T13:10:00.000-07:00

This article was sent to me by Kathy, in England, a good friend of mine for many years. It summarises what Christine and I have come up with over the last three months of the perfect program for starving cancer of energy, and clearing it once and for all. Once cleared, sticking to this mode of living will ensure it will never return.

EXCELLENT ARTICLE ON CANCER AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS (one of Americas biggest medical Universities) IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THEREIS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .

Cancer Update from John’s Hopkins :

1.Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do notshow up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a fewbillion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no morecancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the testsare unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reachedthe detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person"s lifetime.

3.When the person"s immune system is strong the cancer cells will bedestroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiplenutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic,environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing dietand including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6.Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells andalso destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver,kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars anddamages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8.Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reducetumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do notresult in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy andradiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hencethe person can succumb to various kinds of infections andcomplications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate andbecome resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also causecancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells bynot feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a.Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off oneimportant food supply to the cancer cells . Sugar substitutes likeNutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it isharmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molassesbut only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added tomake it w h i te in colour. Better alternative is Bragg"s aminos orsea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in thegastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milkand substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are beingstarved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet isacidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather thanbeef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growthhormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to peoplewith cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds,nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkalineenvironment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Freshvegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed andreach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o no urish andenhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for buildinghealthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetablesincluding bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times aday. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40degrees C).
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Greentea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxinsand heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot ofdigestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines becomeputrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refrainingfrom or eating less meat it frees more e nzymes to attack the proteinwalls of cancer cells and allows the body"s killer ce lls to destroythe cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable thebody"s own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplementslike vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death,the body"s normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, orunneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive andpositive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidicenvironment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn torelax and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment.Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down tothe cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed todestroy cancer cells.
This is an article that should be sent to anyone important in your life !

In Egypt

2008-10-30T12:36:00.000-07:00

Hi All.
I find myself in Egypt as planned, arriving in Cairo in the early hours of 23 October. I purposely picked a hotel which was very close to the great Pyramid at Giza, but when I arrived I found it was a typical Egyptian hotel, very substandard in terms of Western values. As it was 2 AM in the morning, there was nothing I could do but accept the accommodation.

Having lived here for three years, Christine and I have found ourselves in some pretty rough places, and so this was nothing new. What was a surprise was the fact that this hotel was charging $70 a night which is unheard-of for this standard of Hotel. It is just an indication to us that the trend here is to price over and above without an effect on the standards.

I spent three days in this hotel and tuned into the energy of the great Pyramid. For those of you that do not know, the great Pyramid is located on one of the prime focal points of the UVG world grid. In a way, without getting into too much detail, each of the points on the UVG world grid are vortex points, which are multi dimensional gateways for moving through time and space in consciousness. What better place for contacting an incarnation from 5000 years ago.
Please see the photograph of the view from my hotel room window.

Since being here I have definitely felt a shift in the energy, but still unresolved as to where it is leading.

A byproduct of this trip is that on the evening of the 23rd, whilst doing a meditation, I was given the task of putting together a visualisation linked to this vortex point on the world grid. I was asked to put this meditation out into the world so that at a future time, which I have decided will be 14 November, as many people as possible can do this meditation to link into the energies which will be channelled through the Great Pyramid.

The purpose of this meditation is to link you with your soul energy or soul self. It is my intention to record this meditation as it was given to me this particular night, and then post it to a site on the Internet where you can download it if you wish.

It is important that the meditation is done exactly as it was given, and so it felt that the best way to do this was for me to speak the meditation as I was channelling it at the time. After this group meditation, the recording can be used as many times as you wish and/or passed to as many people as you wish as long as you give due credit. I was instructed to give out this meditation unconditionally, without charge.

Something else that I was very strongly impulsed to put out, was to set up a group healing for people with cancer specifically. The idea being that if you know somebody who has cancer, if you forward their name on to me, I will prepare a list to be posted to the blog, or to another site on the Internet, so the names can be recited and focused upon at the time of the new moon and full moon. It felt that if we carried on doing this over extended periods it would become a very powerful service work.

It is also to be used in conjunction with a diagram that I have prepared, the names of the people being written in the centre of the hexagram. When doing their healing, each healer creates the energy of the hexagram around each person to bring balance through the astrological energies depicted. Again, this diagram will be available at the same source on the Internet to which I am going to post the meditation as an MP3 file.

I now find myself in the Villa, in Luxor. I have not been feeling too great over the last three days and so have spent most of my time in the Villa tuning in to the surrounding area and trying to connect to any past incarnations I may have had here in Egypt. Part of what I am picking up is that the priest aspect which brought me here in the first place, also had to deal with cancer so I am not sure whether this is my cancer or his. For any of you who are still sending healing on my behalf, I would suggest that you see me as two people, one here in this lifetime, and one as a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. Since I have been doing healing on myself from this perspective I have definitely felt a shift.

It is my intention over the next three days to go to a couple of the temples which are very close to the Villa. I have not decided which and when. One of the things about this illness is that you can never guarantee what space you are going to wake up in the following day, so you really have to take it one day at a time.

And so for those of you who are reading this blog and have been sending me healing I thank you again for your efforts and your gift.
Much love.
Kevin.

Say Cheese!

2008-10-21T13:38:00.000-07:00

Hi all.
I know that a lot of you have asked permission to send healing, which I have given and am very thankful for. I just discovered the other day that I can post photographs to this blog, and so it felt helpful to put a photograph on the blog of the offending extension which I now have in my neck. I hope that this will help some of you in your ability to tune into it, to discover the cause of it, and to clear it.

Much love.

Kevin.

Egypt Calls

2008-10-21T13:16:00.000-07:00

Hi all.
After having gained insight into the cause of the cancer in my neck and throat from a good friend, which I posted to the blog site a week ago, Christine and I journeyed to London to see a guy there who specialises in shamanic energy and clearing. After going through a two-hour consultation we feel we have gained a more powerful perspective on what is going on.

Prior to my going down to London, I had seen this energy was coming from a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. In meditation, I have seen this priest stood before an altar in one of the temples in Thebes, which is now Luxor, 5000 years ago. Behind him was a group of people who formed the shape of a wedge or Chevron. As each of these priests stood behind the other, they channelled the energy forward to the lead figure which is the person who I had been perceiving in my meditations. This priest was baldheaded, and dressed in gold ritual garments. My feeling was that this person was channelling all of the energies of the temple, and his fellow priests, down through time from 5000 years ago to me here now.

Having passed this information to others of our friends, and my own personal view, we came up with the conclusion that this energy was not necessarily dark. The guy that we consulted in London last week also came up with the same conclusions. He felt that this guy, or priest, was me 5000 years ago attempting to connect to me here now. The energies which were being transmitted was the knowledge and wisdom of the ritual magic practised in the temples of Egypt 5000 years ago.

This definitely had a resonance with me, because in this lifetime, from my earliest attempts at meditation, I have been very powerfully drawn to ritual magic. However, I have not immersed myself in it as it is not something that can be easily taught in workshops as they are presented in the West through the New Age movement. It seems when Christine and I moved to Egypt, the energies increased exponentially causing a block of energy in my throat as I refuse to express them through the workshops and teaching that I have been doing.

It is obvious, then, that the way through this is for me to express and verbalise the energies which are being transmitted to me from that part of me 5000 years ago. To this end, I will travel to Egypt tomorrow to try to connect to this incarnation in order to bring balance to the situation.
Initially, I will be staying in a hotel right next to the pyramids on the Giza plateau. My intention is to sit in the Kings chamber, in the great Pyramid, at 1 PM on the afternoon of Thursday and Friday of this week. If any of you would like to tune in at that time and lend your support I would be happy to have you there with me.
It feels that I would like to catalogue this journey and share it with you, and so it is my intention to create a verbal and pictorial diary of the two-week trip that I will undertake to Egypt.

On Saturday, I will travel up to Luxor and stay in our Villa there one-week. During my time in Luxor, I will go to the temples that we know so well near the Valley of the Kings, and do some meditation in order to integrate this energy which has been waiting so long for me to contact it. Again, I will try to keep a verbal and pictorial diary of events as they unfold.

Since this new information has been revealed to us I have definitely felt a shift in the energy around me and I am hoping that as I integrate these energies more and more, and contact that part of myself from all those years ago, I will see some definite evidence of a positive effect on the physical plane.

The solution presented to us by the guy in London, was that I should now start to practice ritual magic. For those of you who have looked at the Angelic Reiki website, you will see that we have already posted free meditations based on ritual magic, which have been practice for many centuries, and which have come out of the temples of Egypt, in order to clear away negative energy. These medications are still available to anybody who wishes to download them.
It is this ritual of the Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram which I will be practising every day, along with the Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram. These are the main two which I have been instructed to start with. As these energies unfold I foresee that I will gravitate to other rituals as they become revealed.

I have also been instructed to use the Gatatri Mantra which I will be chanting on a daily basis for 108 times each session. This is an extremely powerful mantra contacting the Goddess energies. Luckily, I have used it in the past and know it off by heart and so it is only a matter of getting down and doing it every day.

If anybody would like to follow these rituals, or have me post the Gayatri Mantra to the blog site I would be happy to do so if you would drop me a short e-mail requesting this. I would just like to remind you that I am now going back to Egypt where the Internet connection is not the greatest in the world, and so please bear with me if I do not reply to your e-mails swiftly.

At first, I felt much trepidation in going to Egypt unsupported by myself, especially after having two episodes of intense pain. However, I recognise that this creation came from a place of fear, and as we all know fear is the one energy which will shut down spiritual work. Since I have worked through this, I am in a more positive place to face the next two weeks and what will be revealed on this journey.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.

2008-10-21T10:09:00.000-07:00

A perspective from Christine.

Hi, as you will know I am now back in the UK, but have booked my flights to Mexico City for the end of the month, as it feels to both Kevin and I important that I fulfil this commitment. Nora, who invited us to go and teach Angelic Reiki in Mexico City last March, has spent eight months translating all the workbooks into Spanish. Kevin and I trust that he will be okay during the short time and I'll be away. We have postponed the workshops in Sedona until June 2009.

As you know the purpose of this blogger is a platform to share our perspective and experiences of this disease called cancer. All diseases express themselves through the physical and on a consciousness level. As you may expect we are particularly interested in the effect that cancer has on consciousness. There is a particular consciousness that comes with cancer and I think it can be understood by the nature of how the disease expresses itself. We produce cancer cells all the time and the normal processes for our immune system is to mop up the rogue cells that do not become sufficiently defined and therefore have no part to play in our body. Most new cells that are created become what they are meant to be. A new liver cell develops into a liver cell etc. most cells have within them the "intelligence" to grow into what they were meant to be. As those of you who do Angelic Reiki know, linking into a collective consciousness is very powerful and when one gets cancer one is automatically a member of "the cancer collective consciousness club" and an exceedingly proactive club this is.

Philip Day believes the cancer is a virus. A virus is so simple that it is incomplete and needs a host to express itself through. The characteristics of the consciousness aspect of cancer seem to be extremely potent. They have also been excessively energised by our culture's focus on cancer and by the number of people who have succumbed to this disease. It is difficult at first to define what the characteristics of this consciousness are, because they express themselves through the personality. What I mean by this is that if someone is experiencing cancer depression, then they do depression in their way. It is difficult to see what is actually cancer consciousness and that person's consciousness. It is not possible here to go through all the particular ways in which cancer expresses itself, but it does feel very important to realise that there is an energy that is rather like being overshadowed by a presence, that seems to come with this disease. As we know it is so easy to become identified with the feelings that we are having, and think they are ours.

To give one example though. Depression and hopelessness with cancer seems to have a characteristic of the desire to be separate. The hopelessness does not look for reassurance and support it rather turns inwards and a feeling of the desire to withdraw. We know of people who will even leave their loved ones. The hopelessness of cancer seems to create an acceptance of death, the illusion of the ultimate separation. They suffer alone and are often unwilling to actually communicate the pain that they are in. The cancer cell is separate and isolated from the rest of the cells, it is a rogue. It cannot fulfil its purpose; indeed it has no purpose physically.

There has been some excellent research showing that cancer comes from suppressed emotions (Dr. Candice Purt). This may be a significant traumatic event in our lives, but I also think it can be due to the ultimate emotion that we suppress, the grief of separation from the divine. As Djwhal Khul says through Alice Bailey, "all disease is as result of inhibited Soul life". In other words when we embrace the truth of our own divinity and totally let go of identification with personality and ego, WE CANNOT BE ILL. So all disease comes from the delusion of separation, the divine cannot be ill. The nature of cancer seems to express the characteristics of this so well.

What I am trying to say is that the emotional stuff that comes with cancer is quite complex and this complexity increases significantly the challenges for both the person with the disease and those close around them. The energetic shroud of cancer seems to me to be fourfold.
1. The enigmatic consciousness of the disease itself which is characterised by its very nature.
2. The modern-day focus on the disease and the consequential group consciousness that this has created.
3. The powerfully projected expectations of the medical profession (this has an effect beyond what I would ever have anticipated).
4. The normal feelings of the individual due to being unwell.

The fourth item in this list is what is “normal to feel when we are unwell, but my information is that on average the individuals "normal" feelings constitute only 50%, the rest is made up of 1, 2, & 3. As you can see from this it is exceptionally difficult with cancer to know what belongs to you or your loved one and what is absolutely nothing to do with them at all. Imagine having a cold and feeling twice as bad simply because of the other energies that are associated with it. I think that these factors contribute to the great swings in emotions that occur around cancer and which make it much more difficult to deal with than it needs to be.

So to put it plainly if someone with cancer is feeling despondent, depressed, anxious, hopelessness, separate etc these feelings are twice what is actually normal for that person. This distorts the person’s perception of reality and the ability of those around them to respond appropriately. Add the effects of conventional treatment to this and you really do have a terminal cocktail.

The blessing of cancer is that for those who will search, it is the guide for each of us to find and embrace the truth of our divinity. In this I do not mean some kind of intellectual understanding I mean a total integration of knowing to the extent where the personality has no agendas. You will recognise such person because they do not find themselves important and they are likely to fall over laughing at the illusion. The gift for the carer and loved ones is that you are given the best situation possible to practice non attachment and acceptance. It’s spiritual marathon Training.

If it is true, which it is, that thought forms manifest on the fourth dimensional astral plane, Kevin has more funerals planned for him and than soft Mick! !!!!!!!!!!!

Your help needed

2008-10-13T13:42:00.000-07:00

Hi all.
Tomorrow, Christine and I journey down to London to have a consultation with a Shamanic Master Teacher. The reason for this are as follows. As you can probably imagine, over the three years that I have had this illness, I have received many messages of support and guidance from various people, and our friends. Two of our friends, who are very well known as channels and exceptional spiritual teachers are Jennifer Posada and Edward Courtenay. Please see their websites below.

http://www.edwincourtenay.co.uk/

http://www.jenniferposada.com/

These two of our friends, including others of our students, came up with very similar perceptions of me being interfered with by dark forces originating out of the temples of Egypt. It is also a consideration to remember that this cancer first appeared one month after Christine and I moved to the Valley of the Kings in Luxor, Egypt.
Now, as I try to perceive where this energy attached to my left shoulder is coming from, I see a temple in Egypt shrouded in darkness, there is a large group of Egyptian priest stood in front of a large alter. They are stood in the shape of a Chevron. At the head of the Chevron is a baldheaded priest dressed in gold. All of the priests behind him are channelling energy forward so that it is channelled into this particular priest and thence to me. This energy is flowing now even though this group is assembled in this temple 5000 years ago. Since receiving this information I have started the process of reversing this energy, and since doing this have felt the return of strength that I have mentioned in the previous blogs.

When I started to put out the information in this blog about where I am now, a good friend of mine, who I have known for many years, and trained in the Merkabah, did some shamanic work on my behalf and came up with the following information:-

"did some exploratorory shamanic work last night re "what was eating you"/what (if anything)being missed. spotted what looked like a gold scareb beetle eating at your neck.
first thought was this may be talisman. told to watch.
it turned into a large horned beetle still gold in colour but not metal. was v much alive and chewing away. more came into view.
NOW despite asking, I was not told whether this was eating at you or eating at the cancer. It felt as if it had been put there deliberately but I don't know whether for good or ill.It is v well masked.
I don't feel that the beetle represents the physical cancer. however what came strongly to mind later is that you may have been hit by some majick malevolently sent to stop you communicating the new teachings. it is Egyptian in origin. if you feel it is malevolent and therefore is not eating the cancer away, the beetle can be skewered via its underbelly. Its important it isn't crushed apparently.

I have done nothing as don't know what energies you and your friends have called in, and don't want to trigger removal of something if its working for your recovery! suggest you get Christine or someone with shamanic/majical ability close to you to check it out. If old majick has been used to cause harm I am not surprised the reiki is not removing it. obviously feel free to ignore but I had to pass info on. also possibly check past life - ? bitten by a stag beetle type creature?"

Although in the 20 years that I have been active spiritually, I have never really immersed myself in the philosophy of the Shamanic Faith, although I do understand it's working, and have memory of past lives where I took this path. I do not feel confident enough to draw on the limited experience I have in shamanic energy in order to be able to tackle this particular problem.
It is, then, that we have contacted our friends and come up with the name of a very experienced shamanic teacher in London, who we contacted four days ago, and is willing to do this work for us. We will attend a clinic in the centre of London tomorrow at 2:30 PM till 4:30 PM where we will try to find the source of the interference that we feel has been causing, or is part of the cause of this problem.
If any of you reading this blog would like to assist by sending your energy, or the energy of spirit as you contact it, we would be eternally grateful.
If you read this blog after the designated time do not worry. If you send your energy, either singly or as a group, and intend that Christine and I receive it at 2:30 PM tomorrow afternoon then that will be the case. Together we are strong.

It could also be that some of you reading this blog will go into a bit of processing about being interfered with. I would like to reassure you that interference coming from what we would consider to be 'dark energy' is just a matter of energetic balance finding itself within our reality. Whenever we, as groups, organise ourselves to bring in the highest energies of light into the planet, that group on the planet which holds dark energy would perceive that as a threat and react accordingly. Such is the dance of the universe.
A lot of you have heard me say this but I always draw the analogy to the Godfather films where, when a person is subjected to negative actions, it is just business not personal. This is also the case in spiritual work.

It is very rare that an individual is singled out for particular attention by those of our brothers in incarnation who are on the left-hand path (Black Magicians). Generally, interference is directed at the group of which you are a part. Just holding the energy of bringing the highest light will cause a reaction from this group and there is nothing to fear about it if you are able to hold your intention, your power, and your space.
It seems in my particular case, I am one of the few where this has been made an exception, and this is probably why Christine and I have found it so difficult over the last three years. However, this is of no import when, as a group, we can come together in consciousness and stand firm against the forces that wish to enslave humanity in the lower three chakras of the personality.

I know we will be successful tomorrow thanks to your efforts, the continued support of spirit, and the inevitable outcome whereby the light will always overcome the dark.
All my love and thanks.
Kevin.

Distance Healing

2008-10-13T05:46:00.000-07:00

Hi all. Since asking for your support last week by sending absent healing, I am very glad to report that I am feeling a hell of a lot better. In fact, I feel stronger over the last two days than I have done over the last two months.

It may cause some of you to ask the question "why didn't he asked for it sooner?". The reason is that around this time last year, one of our students in America organised a mass healing on my behalf. It was around October, and Christine and I were doing a Mind, Body, Spirit fair in Cairo, Egypt. This particular student gathered together some 50 people to send me healing at a specific time on a specific day. I agreed to it because I felt it would be a good thing. However, when the appointed time came, the healing was of such power that it put me into bed for two days, and I nearly left the incarnation. I have been very wary about accepting distant healing since this time. I will say that in hindsight, as Christine and I now look back upon that time, we would have to agree that it was a turning point in this illness which has allowed me gradually to start to walk the path which will ultimately see me resolve it.
As we say in all of our workshops, there are no mistakes.

I am now of the opinion, having once again felt its power, that we as a group could do immense service on the planet by organising co-ordinated healing sessions for particular people, places, or things at specific appointed times. If any of you reading this blog would like to subscribe to such a group then please let me know in a separate e-mail.

I would like to thank all of you for the healing that you have sent, and would ask you to continue sending it. Never before have Christine and I felt so confident that we will now start to see the end of this illness, and we have a lot of you to thank for that.
Much love.
Kevin.

Cancer Consciousness

2008-10-13T05:33:00.000-07:00

I have had a number of e-mails in response to the blog which have had a quality of passing information to me which I have been teaching for the last five years. It feels as though some of you feel that I have descended into the cancer so much that I have forgotten how one creates one's own reality, and that the reason why the cancer is here is because I believe I have it.

Although at the start of this blog, I tried to put forward the reasons why Christine and I had decided to do it, it does feel as though I should reiterate those reasons.

I would like to say that the reason I decided to do the blogger, after much thought, was to try to pass to all of you the issues that arise when you have to contend with an illness like cancer.
All of these major illnesses of which humanity suffers, which have been around for many thousands of years, have attached to them consciousness grids which play out in the consciousness of each person who contracts that disease. So apart from the symptoms and results of the disease, the person who contracts the disease also has to deal with the effects of being connected to the consciousness grids associated with that disease. This is a point that is not often recognised by people in the West, and healers who are helping these people come to terms and treat the disease.

The object of doing the blogger was that, I, as a healer have a foot in both camps. I am going through the process of being connected to the consciousness grid of cancer, and downloading all of the fear, doubt, and worry associated with that consciousness grid, and at the same time I am a spiritual practitioner who has the ability to remain in a neutral place and observe the process. My reason for putting out the blogger was that I hoped I could share the observations that I have been having about all the doubts, fear, and worry that is associated with cancer downloaded from the consciousness grid that I am having to clear on a daily basis. If Healers recognise that this is a quality to all disease of the people they are treating, it is my feeling we will be able, as Angelic Reiki practitioners, to offer help to these people on a level that other Healers cannot do.

I am continually holding the space of knowing that I am a divine being in incarnation, and as a divine being could not possibly embody a disease as we understand it. This is my truth. However, there is obviously another component to the cancer that I have, in the sense that even though I truly embody this consciousness I still have the cancer. It is not enough to take the high spiritual ground and expect to never contract illness as we understand it. One has to take responsibility for having created the illness in the first place, whether that be in this lifetime or another. The frustration which I referred to in the blog is being able to have an internal self-image as the spiritual, divine being that I am, and to still embody illness.

On this plane of reality one has to walk hand-in-hand with the divine and accept the human part of each of us, and be prepared to work through that human part. This is a process that I find myself in at this time. I am truly confident that through the efforts of Christine and myself we will come through this process a lot richer and wiser for it. It is also my feeling that we are very close to doing that, which is another reason why we decided to put out the blog. Over the next 2 to 3 months we feel we will totally transition through this illness and be able to share the process with all of you so that it may enrich your knowledge as it will do ours.
Much love. Kevin.

Too Much Pain

2008-10-09T13:37:00.000-07:00

Hello again my friends. Yesterday I had a very strange day. I had gotten up at 8 AM in the morning as usual, but as sometimes is the case, I felt extremely tired and decided to go back to bed.
Woke up again at 11 AM, got up as normal, had a shower and shave. On going downstairs for my first beverage of the day, I was three-quarter way through the cup of tea when suddenly I started to go very lightheaded. In just a very short space of time this increased to such a point that I felt as though I was going to pass out. This caused me some concern as I am living by myself in a cottage in West Yorkshire. Also, at the same time I had the most amazingly acute pain in the left hand side of my neck. This pain was so intense I had never experienced anything like it before in this lifetime. It was so bad, that all my muscles were jumping and I could not stop myself from shaking. I thought I had better get some assistance, and so went over to the phone to call 999. By this time, my vision had gone, and I could not see the buttons. I had to put my head between my legs to regain some kind of vision, and then very quickly bob up to make a 999 call. On answering I found it very difficult to speak because I was breathing so rapidly I could not get any words out. Luckily, I managed to get out the address and receive assurances that the ambulance was on the way.

It arrived five minutes later, and the paramedics did a very good job in trying to bring the situation under control. All through this I was in this immense pain that I cannot describe. They tried to get me to slow down my breathing which I managed to do, through the meditation training etc, but it was a challenge. We then proceeded to go to the local emergency department at the hospital, where I ended up waiting for an hour for a doctor to see me. All of the time in the same amount of pain.
Once the doctor had come, he took two hours of administering morphine up to 15 mg before the pain subsided. Apparently, this is a very high dose. I have to say I did enjoy the trip, but not the pain.
As I did not know what was happening, it only felt right to give Christine a quick call to let her know what was going on. Of course, on hearing the news Christine booked the first flight back to England, and within two hours was on a plane. I am happy to say she is with me now.

Apparently, the pain was triggered by a massive drop in blood pressure which is why I could not stand up and kept feeling as though I was going to faint. Nobody knows why the blood pressure dropped like it did. The medical establishment seems to be focused on alleviating what is there, but not really focusing on the cause of the problem, but we all know that. What it has done, however, is mobilise the forces of cancer care. So now I have people coming at me from every direction. MacMillan nurses from one direction, district nurses from another, and palietive care nurses from another. This is great, because Christine has to go back to Mexico in the next week and I have to be by myself once again. It is of some concern that this could happen again while I am by myself, and it is a challenge to be able to get to a phone and call for assistance. I do not know how the nurses etc are going to set up the care programme, but I do know that I will be checked on constantly.

The overall feeling that is coming from the doctors and nurses in the A&E, the MacMillan nurses etc is that I am now on my last legs and they are all expecting me to go on a long journey very soon. Of course, once again, Christine and I do not buy into this and we are still plugging away with the programme of diet and vitamins to sort this out.
As you can imagine, we have received many e-mails of support, and some of those e-mails have supplied us with new insight. One of the e-mails has been particularly helpful, and it has caused Christine and I look for help in a certain direction which we feel will be productive. As we explore this, I will post more information to this blogger.

So what is the lesson? A lesson for me at this moment in time is humility. I did put out a request that I did not require any healing from anybody. When I woke this morning I was a different person. I am the same as anybody else, not an amazing spiritual teacher, but a normal bloke who has a bloody painful cancer. So if anybody out there feels they can help by sending energy or healing then I would be very grateful to accept it.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.

Chimo

2008-10-08T16:08:00.000-07:00

Hi all.
It may come as a surprise to some of you, but then to those of you that know me no surprise, in that I am not doing the chemotherapy and radiation therapy after all.
I did turn up at St James is Hospital, Leeds, on Monday as expected. I arrived at 2 PM in the afternoon and waited for four hours until 6 PM when one of the registrars came with the consent form for me to sign.
Apparently, by law in England, she has to go through the list of side effects that can be inherent in the treatment of chemotherapy. This she proceeded to do. The only problem was the fact that she came out with a whole list of side effects that I had not heard of up until this point.

Two weeks prior to me being in St James's, Christine had flown in from South Africa to see the doctor in charge specially so that she could explain to both of us the treatment and the side-effects so that we could make an informed choice. During this meeting, we were told that the chemotherapy that I would be undergoing was a very mild form of the treatment. A lot of the side-effects would not apply to me, like hair loss etc. It was based on this information the Christine and I decided to go ahead with the treatment.

I now found myself with a registrar in front of me detailing side-effects that I had not heard about up until this time. These side-effects were as follows:

Feeling sick and nauseous and being sick. Well we did have this explained to us but were told that it would be very very mild if at all.

Another side-effect is that your kidneys are affected with the possibility that if the effect is severe your kidneys can be permanently damaged, and so during the treatment they have to very closely monitor your water output in case you go down this road. This is one of the side-effects that were not mentioned.

A numbing or tingling of the feet and hands. Again this was not explained to us and the doctor in front of me told me that most people feel this affect up to some level. I asked this doctor particularly how long these side-effects last but she would not say categorically, however, later I found myself being given two sheets with all of the information which said that most of these side effects can last for a few months after the treatment ends. This meant that as I was undergoing the treatment over four months, I would have most of these side-effects in place for nearly 9 months.

The treatment can affect hearing, so that you may develop Tinitus and lose the ability to hear some high-pitched sounds again, for a small number of people this may be permanent.

This treatment also affects your ability to taste food.

This treatment also lowers your resistance to infection by reducing the production of white blood cells in the bone marrow which leaves you prone to infection. This particular doctor really went into this giving me the impression that this was pretty common, and I was told that I would be given a telephone number so that if I developed a cold or a cough I had to instantly ring them and be rushed into the hospital for a session of antibiotics.

You could experience bruising or bleeding like nosebleeds, blood clots rashes or bleeding gums.
In some minor cases anaemia can become part of the symptoms with tiredness and breathlessness.

A lot of appetite. Again, most people go through this particular one.

Also, one of the ones that I was particularly interested in was the fact that this treatment could make you impotent.
All of these symptoms that I have just explained were not explained to Christine and I the first time we met the doctor two weeks ago.

It was, then, that I had to inform this doctor that this was the first time I'd heard of any of these symptoms, and so I was not in place to accept the treatment. I said I would go away and think about it and let them know in one week's time.
On returning back home, I gave Christine a call in California and we talked over the situation. The result of this is the Christine and I have agreed not to do the treatment but to put all of our eggs in one basket and to totally rely on this programme of diet, enzymes, vitamins etc to overcome the cancer.

In the next part of this blogger I will do as I said I would do, which is to detail all of the remedies that you can take to reduce the effects of chemotherapy, which I had with me at the time, but which now I do not need.
And so it is I find myself back at the cottage totally immersing myself in this program and trying to reorientate my way of life and outlook in order to overcome the causes of this illness.

Chanellings

2008-10-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

I thought it would be beneficial for me to include 2 chanellings I did a year ago while I was in South Africa. Some of you will have read them before.

The first is the group consciousness of the tumour in my throat. The second is the group consciousness of my physical body, known as the 'body elemental' or 'body deva'.

Tumour.
We are the sum total of the consciousness which is the tumour in Kevin's mouth.
We are asked at this time to give full account of why we have appeared in this physical body.
As you have intuited and have recognized cells within the human body can be changed by the influx of energies caused by emotion and mental trauma. In some degree this is the case in this particular body. We constitute a mass, a mass consciousness that is derived from a perception by the inhabiting being of something that does not resonate with the overall geometric patterning held as a consciousness by this physical body. For our part, we do not know the cause of this influx of negative energy, all we do is act upon it. It's nature is one of discord and disharmony which causes us to recreate in physical structure the most appropriate to the thoughtform which is held by the incarnated being. However, we can say that the nature of this thoughtform is based on pain, or a perception by the incarnated being of an immutable and unchangeable condition whereby pain is integrated as a part of this physical body. It comes to us from the over lighting intelligence of this body, that this condition has its roots not in the genetic lineage of this body but in the consciousness of the informing and incarnating entity.
To cause the release of this condition, and to allow us to return to our original patterning, a transformation of the original thoughtform must ensue. This can only be brought about by the incarnating entity. We are to some degree guided by the group consciousness of the entire physical body, which has an intelligence which is far above ours. We suggest that if the incarnating entity wishes to get to the root cause of the thoughtform which is causing us to create cause this particular conflagration, then the incarnating entity question the overlighting intelligence of this physical body.
However, we can say that we are feeling the thrill of a change in our cellular structure caused by the closing in of the reasons for our being in this particular state. We encourage the incarnating entity to continue upon the line in which it is now going. We would also say at this time that we feel that we are holding this condition based on an inability to disperse caused by a lack of communication around which centre we are now creating ourselves. Our advice, therefore, is to follow this line. We are fully aware of the nature of the mission of this incarnating entity, and would look forward to serving upon the line in which this entity will now proceed. It is with this communication and this last sentence that we can no longer contribute to the question in hand. We are fully available to serve.

Body Deva.
So it is finally good that we get to talk at last. The time is overdue where you have opened yourself up to communication with the very vehicle which you inhabit. As you have often said in your workshops I am a very advanced being of my evolution. It is not commonly known that when teachers descend into incarnation in a third dimensional physical form, the over lighting intelligence which will constitute that form is advanced as the teacher coming into form. I have evolved for many thousands of years upon your planet, and have served as the vehicle for many teachers, and mystics, and channels of the light. I am a leader of my race. In this particular case our coming together was carefully chosen by those who overlight such things.

We both know that we are going through a momentous time on the planet. The Devic evolution is proceeding as much as the human. We are working in cooperation to bring about the necessary changes which must ensue over the coming years. Many teachers from the spiritual hierarchy are now descending into incarnation, and are choosing very advanced Devic beings in which to inhabit and overlight their physical bodies.
The line on which these teachers descend is one of clearing and reconfiguring old patterning held by certain genetic lineages. Your particular case is no exception. As you know, the Age of Pisces has now passed out but all incarnations on the planet have to follow the line which is presented to them at any one time. The vibration of Pisces was one off the teacher taking unto themselves the suffering of others. It was the transmuting of the pain of the earth unto themselves so that a general clearing through the genetic line of the race could ensue. As the Age of Aquarius is now upon us this mode of working is now dropping away. You have intuited that you, however, are working on the line of the Piscean vibration. Many of your students are also working along this line; indeed, Angelic Reiki at this time is drawing to itself students who are transmuting the pain of humanity by holding this pain unto themselves.

It seems from the personality consciousness in which you view this that this is definitely unfair, however, taken from a wider view, it is the mode of working that has been followed for the last 2000 years. Viewed from the spiritual hierarchy there is no such thing as pain and suffering, only transmutation. In your particular case you chose an incarnation where pain was the vibrating keynote. You chose to take the burden of the pain of all those in which you came in contact, from your direct family, to the people around you. You chose a profession whereby the people within that profession were suffering due to the fact they had the inability to realise their life’s goals and therefore settled for something less. This was the case in both engineering, and teaching. In both these cases the people involved chose the profession as a second choice, because they did not have the intellectual or financial ability to realise their life goal. You immersed yourself in this energy to transmute it and give these people hope by your very vibration. Unfortunately, you have taken their pain into your personality consciousness, and have not allowed your connection to spirit to transmute this pain. It has, therefore, in your life created a situation whereby you have viewed your reality as a painful experience. This has taken its toll on your physical body. Because of your ability to transmute and transform energy you have carried yourself through all of the years up to now virtually unscathed, but your coming together with Christine, and the anguish that you feel from this relationship was too much, and it tipped the balance. You have felt the deep connection to this being and you're pain at not being able to merge with her has caused you to release all of the stored trauma within your cells, that you have been holding at bay all these years. Your inability to tell her what you feel, and to express your love in the deepest way that you can, has caused a buildup around the organ of communication which is the cause of your present consternation.

As part of this incarnation, as with most teachers following this line, the doorway out of incarnation was the means to shed the stored trauma within the physical body and release it as you ascended the planes once again. By your decision to elect to stay here longer than was first planned in your original incarnational patterning you now find yourself surrounded and overwhelmed by the pain of this incarnation. It is true that we will now be together to create another round of teaching on this planet, and to anchor a new wave of energy which is coming in to you and through you to the rest of humanity. As this energy comes through you it also comes through me, and likewise, transforms the Devic Kingdom. At this time we have to address the situation which is causing the condition which is threatening this new life path for both of us.

As the cause of this original condition was that perception and integration of pain at the third dimensional level, you need to work through the human perception of what pain is. You have to let go of your attachment to it. You have to feel what service that pain gave you in this incarnation up to this present time, and you have to make a decision as to whether you wish to carry on with this particular task. As you have felt, the work that you are doing has now moved into a new phase. This new perception and integration of the energies of the spiritual hierarchy should allow you to embody that consciousness and embrace the human concept of pain as the teacher which it truly is. I for my part, will assist as much as I can. You must pass this pain to me as much as transmuting it for yourself. You must allow the elemental and Devic the kingdoms of the earth and the earth itself to take what you perceive to be the pain and anguish and suffering of others unto itself. As in the case of your particular incarnation it is the mission, the duty of the earth to transmute this pain also, and to hold onto this pain and not pass it to the planet is not a service.

Together we hold the matrix of this physical body together. We must work together to overcome the situation, and I will guide you in as much as you consult me when you feel you need to. I constantly impress you with what needs to be done to overcome this situation. You have also felt that the excesses down any one line are exacerbating the situation. It is also a truth that part of the programming of this physical body does carry programmes which need to be transmuted and therefore the shutting down of such programmes is not the answer. As you have already felt, to give up certain practices which have been deemed harmful to the physical body is not always true to case. I would suggest that you continue doing what you feel is right and integrating those chemicals and substances into your body until such time as you have brought balance to the situation. I would also advise at this time that part of this problem is the perception by yourself that certain practices that you are doing are bad. Holding this thoughtform will create an energy around the particular practice and will integrate into this physical body the program of disharmony. As both you and your wife have said anything is possible as long as you enjoy it. It is your ability to carry on doing these practices without feeling the joy of it. It is pointless taking certain substances into your body if at the same time you have a perception that it is bad. This will cause an anchoring within your cellular structure of resistance to this particular substance and therefore the problem ensues. We advised you to re-polarise the reasons why you do certain things in your life, and rather than judge yourself and these things as bad, we suggest that you feel the joy in them, and if you cannot do this then let this practice go.

We are both at the crossroads of a new period together. We both have to put our attention on the current situation in order to alleviate it. By no means has this condition been overcome, but I can say that already the energy is shifting into a more positive phase. Your wife also has a connection with the Devic Kingdom which is on a different line to yourself. We suggest that you should consult her and let her do the balancing she needs to do along this line. We suggest that she calls upon her innate knowledge and connection to the forces of nature who will guide her in the most appropriate way to bring balance to your physical body.

I am particularly glad that we have now made this contact. It has long been overdue. I would also mention that part of our work together is to do exactly what you are doing here. Both of us have been chosen for our particular abilities that allow us to connect to the intelligence both of the spiritual hierarchy and this planet. We are in service to both this planet and the hierarchy and there is information which is much needed on this planet which we can give out if we make ourselves available. I ask you, therefore, to contemplate this so that we may make ourselves available for those forces which wish to connect humanity through our ability to channel the needed information for this momentous time.
This communication is now ended, my name is Receiver of Light.

2008-10-04T23:05:00.000-07:00

Since April of this year, and the conference we did in Luxor, Egypt, I have not been able to teach a full workshop. As you can imagine, this has really pissed me off. One of the things I love doing most in life is being able to share the experience of Spirit with all of the people who come to do our workshops. It has been a real challenge for me to let go of my attachment to doing this. It has also been a great challenge to allow Christine to take my place, and to trust that she can do it as good as I can, which I am happy to say she can. It has brought up for me control issues.
As I write this blogger, Christine is in Canada where she has just finished teaching a 7 Day Angelic Reiki workshop. Tomorrow, Sunday, she flies to California for three weeks to teach a Shamballa Workshop, and to do an Angelic Reiki update. From there, she goes on to Mexico and from there to Sedona, Arizona. I, however, am in Bingley, West Yorkshire, which I can assure you is not as glamorous as the places where Christine is visiting. Also, I have to find the positive side of being in a country where it is continuously autumn.
Before travelling to Canada, Christine did spend two weeks with me here. What we found that arose was that Christine had spent time away previous to these two weeks again, teaching, and during this time this illness got a slightly stronger foothold. What this means is that periodically, like once every 10 days, I find myself being extremely exhausted and having to spend most of the day in bed. Unfortunately, when Christine was here, I went through such a period. She found it particularly distressing because she had not seen me go through it to that extent before. We found that it had the same effect on a relationship that we describe in workshops when one person does spiritual work and the other person doesn't. It causes the situation where one of the people in a relationship cannot commit to that relationship in the same way. The other person, starts processing like mad, because they are doing what they normally do, and are expecting the responses but the responses never come. This was the case when Christine and I got together last time. We both saw it, but that did not stop us from going into it and feeling it.
As I stated at the beginning of this blogger, I am trying to pass on what other people find in the same situation. And as I expand on this, you will see that cancer as an illness takes people out of the game. It isolates people from the normal modes of life and all the relationships that, up until that time, they have been an integral part of. It causes a massive amount of grief in that person and feelings of separation from everybody else.
As these perceptions come up, Christine and I are trying our best to work through them, to recognise how it affects our feelings for each other and our relationship, and try to bring some balance to the situation. Part of me is glad that Christine is not here because then I know she will not be suffering from feeling me suffer. But then again, I am processing because she is not here and I miss her terribly. There is no easy way out.

2008-10-04T16:46:00.001-07:00

Some of you reading this blog will have memories about the blogger I put out when I first found out that I had cancer three years ago. Then, as now, it felt it would be of service to put out the experience I was going through to all of the students that we had taught. The business we are in is healing. It felt that my perceptions about the process of having cancer, going through operations in hospital, and how it affected the lives of Christine myself, would help all of us to understand the process that our patients will go through if they contact the same kind of illness. This reasoning still holds good as I now write this blogger.
Since the operations that I had in Cairo, in the summer of 2006, I have had three lumps appear in my neck, and then through the efforts of the energies of Angelic Reiki disappear. This year, with the conference that we undertook in Luxor, Egypt, the pattern has changed. I do not know what it was about the energies that we brought through at this conference, but what it did was shift the cancer into a very aggressive mode. I have not been able to eat solid food since April of this year. I have been in variable amounts of pain from extreme to annoying. This time last year I was taking 50 mg Tramadol, which is the morphine-based painkiller. Now, I am on three times that dose. I do not care what anybody says, if they take the high ground about using the energies of spirit to cure illness, and decrying the use of conventional treatment, if you are in extreme pain it will change your mind. This has been the case with me. Two months ago, I made the decision to come back to England and see the doctors here. As fate would have it, the doctor I ended up seeing was the same doctor I saw two years ago that only gave me one year to live. He still finds it incomprehensible that I am still around after not doing conventional treatments
Six weeks ago the same doctor took some biopsies from two lumps in my neck, and an ulcer in the back of my throat on the left-hand side. All of the results were positive. After seeing this doctor to get the results, he said the cancer was inoperable because it had invaded so many parts of my tongue, jaw, and throat, that to remove all of these parts would not be feasible. They therefore decided that the best treatment was a very aggressive regime of chemotherapy and radiation therapy. Even the doctors said that this treatment would be very, very hard. They also offered a less aggressive treatment that would not be curative, but would be paliative, which means it will give me more time. After due consideration, Christine and I have chosen this option.
We do not accept, as the doctors do, that this is a fete accomplie. For us, this illness could go tomorrow. For me, it is buying me more time so that I can find out finally what the causes are and clear it. With this particular treatment they are saying it may give me up to 2 more years in the physical. That is two more years where I can focus my attention on it and tried to clear it. And so it is that I find myself going into St James's Hospital, Leeds, on Monday for the first round of chemotherapy that will last for five days. I will then take two weeks off, and then repeat the process for up to 6 times. After all of the chemotherapy has been completed, I will then have to do to five-day sessions of radiation therapy, with a two week break between each one. The whole of this treatment will take me into March of next year.
Since coming to England, and now having access to books and information that is not readily available in Egypt, Christine and I have found a program of natural remedies that we are now instigating as part of doing, and complementing, Angelic Reiki. It is a complete program using vitamins, enzymes, antioxidants, specific kinds of food etc. Later, I will post this program to this blogger so that you can see the programme for yourselves, and it may be that in the future you could save it and copy it to give to your patients if they are experiencing cancer.
It is Christines and my feeling that the reason why Angelic Reiki has not cleared it, but has kept it at bay for the last two years, is that we needed to look at lifestyle. This means that we needed to look at diet, what I have been drinking, the way I have been living life. It involves a complete change of emphasis in thought, outlook, and creating a balanced environment both in my body, and around myself. Again, I will share this with you through this blogger.
Again, I would ask you all that you refrain from sending me any healing. I know this sounds strange, but I am definitely working with specific energies of Spirit to clear this cancer down a certain line. It does feel that if lots of people send me healing from their perceptions of what cancer is, I will be getting a multitude of healing energies that may conflict with what I am trying to do. I would therefore ask all of you to focus your attention on sending me all of the energies of Spirit so that I may use them in the way that I see fit. This would be of the greatest service.
For those of you that are living close to Bradford, which is where I am now staying, I will just mention that I will be leading the Saltaire Meditation Group at specific times between now and Christmas. I cannot commit to every Friday, because of having to go into hospital for the treatment. I did a meditation this Friday, for the first time, and it was very successful. For those of you interested, the next time I will be doing the meditation at the Saltaire Meditation Group will be 17 October at 8 PM. It would be great if those of you that live close by could attend and we can create a group to bring in some powerful energies at a time on the earth where it is desperately needed.
And so my friends, I will share this experience with you over the next 3 to 4 months. Hopefully, as I try to be unconditional and neutral, there may be something in what I perceive that will help you in your work as Healers.
All my love.
Kevin.